amoroocultado

2012

2012-01-02T21:57:00.002+08:00

2009, 2010, 2011, 2012.
Many people would said that everyone should be welcoming the new year happily,
honestly for me I have nothing to look forward for this year,
the start of the year is already full of obstacles, lets just put it this way
lets just start with the first week of Jan,
things start pouring in already, even though I managed to enjoy the first few days of the year with you,
my mind is full of assignments.
Sometimes I really wonder what have our batch done to receive such a treatment,
what has happened to their conscience for this current batch of educators,
I wished that I can really have a look of whats going through their thoughts and mind,
it mind make me feel better that way.
But too bad after hearing those words from my classmates on what are the replies and reactions from the higher authorities,
it really hurt to heart, as students from the course they are teaching,
yet they are doing such things to us, first it was her, now the entire course management is doing it,
just what is going on with the school after an internship.
Seems like the suffering just wont end,
it wont end so easily...

My dear caramel,

I am sorry to say such frightening things to you over Msn,
but I just wish to inform you that if suddenly you realised that I am missing or gone,
at least you know whats going on, you would know what I would wish that you can do:)
If that day ever come, please accept my apologies that I am the first side of the chopsticks to break away from you, but in the mean time i will pray super hard that this pair of chopsticks will be the longest living chopsticks you have ever seen:)
hmm, lets just put it in a story form:)
Ever wonder how this pair of chopsticks met? they started off growing from the same tree,
the were growing on the same branch and twig,
the leaves and flowers growing out of their branch are their babies,
they precious offspring.
The tree grew happily for years until civilisation came with machine to cut down all the trees,
in order to make way for humans.
Both of them teared, they were worried that would be separated forever,
they were looking hard and starring at each other,
they were together all the time, even when they were sent to an unknown place.
Affinity and fate seems to be strong between them,
or may God were touched by their love.
The both of them were made into chopsticks,
each part of them were made tightly to each other.
They were left in the corner since they were made,
no one seems to have know about their existence,
many years have passed they were still at the same place,
until it was the last day of the world,
they were still together.
they grew together, they spent their life together until the end.

Caramel, this is how we would end, how the both of us want things to end:)
I will definitely constantly remind myself of our goal, dream, etc

Another moment of reality

2011-12-26T22:55:00.003+08:00

As our second year anniversary came and go like any other days,
so are the holidays, its coming to an end in a matter of days.

The assignments are coming again, like another wave of tsunami,
why is the last semester so tough?
Why must things be so difficult without you around?
all these agonies will only come to an end when its mid February,
before that I will have a to cross the sea of fire, and hilly steep mountains.

I am so worried that I am unable to complete the course, with a good grade,
worry that I wont be able to do a good job,
get a place in local uni so that I am able to get a decent job and pay,
to allow our dream to come true.
I swear that I dont want to be your burden, I wna be there to ease your burden:)
No matter what I do, I swear that I must share and ease your burden,
The assignments are really so tough, really hope that my prayers will be answered,
so things wont be so tough, I really want to look forward to fulfilling our dreams...

My dear Carrot Golden Pony(Click here to find out my dear baby:)
thanks for being there to hold my hand before I fall completely,
really appreciate it when you never fail to keep reminding me how much are you willing to do for me,
wish that I can always hold your hands forever,
let our fingers interlocked tightly with each other so it will be intertwined forever:)

Cheers.
God Bless you:)
Crossingfingers that nothing will happened:)

Helpless

2011-12-07T22:39:00.001+08:00

Seems like things were never meant to be smooth for you over at that little island,
wish that things were not so difficult for you,
maybe when the both of us are free, we should drop by the area to pray for your health and safety inside,
it might be a little late now, but its still better than not doing anything.

If not maybe I shall just drop by the area one day when I am free,
thats the least I could do since I have yet to do anything for you before and after you went to the island.
it really breaks my heart to see you suffer every other two weeks,
cause you were never so sick...
seeing you so sick, i really hope that i can share your burden,
be sick and ill on your behalf.

Cheers.
God bless you.
Dear god, can you please let him recover asap,
im willing to sacrifice every single thing i have in order to let him survive better in the island.
Even if its to shorten my lifespan I am willing to do so.
Anything as long as it lets you have a better life in there.

disappointment

2011-12-01T23:39:00.001+08:00

Sad to say you never fail to

shatter the heart into infinity pieces

Unicorn Name Generator

2011-11-30T13:38:00.001+08:00

Here are our Unicorn Names:)
Guess I have found new nick names for both of us:D

Got my name after typing it into the website:)

Poppy Blue Pony
Poppy is quick- witted and bright as a spark.
She is as blue as the sky,
and she brings the sunshine and chases away clouds.
Do you think its true for me?:)

Here is your's :D
Carrot Golden Pony
Carrot is an eccentric genius with a big imagination
He is as golden as a sunrise,
and he brings the sunshine and chases away clouds!

Hmm, does it seems to be true?
why dont you tell me about it?;D

My Pillar my sanity

2011-11-28T00:42:00.001+08:00

Your departure marks the end of my sanity as I lose my pillar,
the weeks have always been tough without you,
but to think that there is another 2 weeks that we cant see each other,
it just tears me down further making things worst than ever!
can you please dont leave me no matter what happens?

Smooth Sailing

2011-11-21T17:45:00.001+08:00

Sigh, things havent been quite smooth ever since you have left,
no more shifts given to me, not a single lunch shift:(
Guess, my budget for next month has turned so tight!:(
How I wish things would turn for the better, wishing to get back my shifts at aps,
as I really need my job, really badly:(

Frustrations

2011-11-17T11:27:00.001+08:00

Please dont misunderstood the following things that would be typed in this post,
No one is to be blame, the problem just lies in me.

Without any clue, frustrations and anger have been taking over me,
all the waiting and suspense, patience is running out fast.
now that you are sick, its just making things worst.
Frustrated knowing that you are sick and unwell,
yet I cant do anything to ease your pain or agony?
Its just worst than ever,
the feelings and things going through my mind just sucks big time!

Every time I know that you are sick and unwell,
I just wna be there by your side taking care of you.
Why must that horrible island kept making you fall sick,
what the hell is wrong with that place,
why must you be the one who is falling sick and not others?
WHY WHY WHY!
what happen to your immune system?
did they just sort you out in the wrong place?
Why?

I just hate every single thing that makes me feel frustrated and angry,
that includes myself...

8- 2= 6

2011-11-10T21:39:00.001+08:00

If it wasnt for public holiday, it will be exactly 8 days since you left.
But with holidays, its only 6 days cause I have managed to spend 2 nights talking to you,
and maybe one day to go out with each other:)

I really miss you so much that I would just stare into blank space just thinking of you:(
So many things that I wish to tell you that my mind is exploding anytime,
yet I still have so many things to tell you,
so many things that i have no idea where to begin:)

I am sorry

2011-11-06T21:16:00.000+08:00

I am very sorry to be upset,
I am useless and maybe hopeless,
cause I really cant seem to adapt well without you around,
For the pass few days without you,
I started becoming lost, not focus with anything I am doing,
order the wrong drink,
no motivation to do anything,
I am sorry,
I know I shouldnt be emo or downcast,
but...
i know whatever I said doesnt make a difference,
I am not blaming you trust me please:(
If you can remember how badly I felt without you while I was at Cambodia,
can you rmb how miserable I was?
plus that time, I was still able to receive your emails, and texts,
but now, I can barely receive nothing from you,
hear nothing from you?
every week I only can spend a few days with you:(
I am sorry, but I am not sure if I can survive it:(

I am sorry I really dont hope to seek your understanding,
you can scold me all you want,
cause I really really cant take it at all,
but I still dont expect you to understand how I feel,
I am really sorry to make you worry and say things that make your frustrated/

Cheers.
God bless you.
You are my weakness,
I wont relent to anything except you.

Confession X

2011-11-03T01:02:00.002+08:00

hmm, its the last confession for you to read before your enlistment tmr,
really very sorry that I have to remove the necklace you wore for me to take that photo you wanted so badly,
thank god, we manage to spam another 5 instax shots;)
glad to have an image of you with specs:)
hmm, not that bad afterall, at least you looked matured not older?
If its okay, cause by next year the both of us would be in the 2 range?
But sometimes I really wonder, what if by the age of 30 - 40,
I am still having the character and personality of a teenager?
Would you still want me or would you just feel that I am immature and childish, LOL

Seriously wonder how would you turn out after 2 weeks,
or maybe 3 months of BMT,
and maybe upon completing your NS?
will you still be the same old you or the better and matured you?;p hehes

tmr just reminds me of the time when I left for Cambodia,
how I yearned for you to send me off but you didnt,
I am not sure if you had the same thoughts and feelings about sending each other off tmr,
but I am unsure if I should thank you for asking me not to,
so I wont have to decide between you and school?
but at the same time I am worried that you would be disappointed and upset like me when I didnt see you at the airport,
would you really not feel this way?
Cause i know deep down somewhere in your heart,
you will be and you are sad
but you rather said that you arent cause you felt that if I appear right before you eyes,
you will feel even harder to let go off me,
cause it will make things feel worst when we have to part.
I kind of agree with you about that whipping in tears as we part,
guess its a wise decision for the both of us:)

Hope you enjoy the photos;)
even though I wished that you will be thinking of me like how I think of you,
please dont do anything foolish,
I wna see you in once piece when you are out.

Cheers.
God bless you:)
Hope everything remains the same if not,
may us fall deeper than ever for each other,
whispering to each other's eyes how badly we wna belong to one another,
as I wont want this relationship to go waste cause of this separation

Confession IX

2011-11-01T22:32:00.000+08:00

Sigh, in less than 60 hours, you will be gone to a remote island,
now it makes me even more tempted than ever to skip classes to accompany you,
until you board that ferry.
But I know I cant, cause of school, I cant afford to skip cause of the attendance.
Guess the next time that I am really looking forward to would be the weekend?
Would definitely wish to be there to have the last meal with you before seeing you the next time:)

Though we had spent the last few days, it came and go really fast,
in my heart, i felt that we could have spent the days better,
making use of the time more wisely than how we had spent,
just wish that you didnt had to go,
I am selfish, really selfish,
but I am sorry I really cant help it.

Your departure made it feel like im losing you fast,
I am not used to you leaving me,
cause normally I am the one who went overseas,
due to circumstances, I am unable to contact you,
but no matter what I would find all sorts of ways to ensure that I can reach you,
from Shanghai all the way to Cambodia,
we contacted through emails.

but now, things seem so....
sigh...

Cheers.
God bless you;)
I really dont look forward to thursday,
may work numb me.

Confession VIII

2011-10-30T23:34:00.000+08:00

Gosh, time seriously pass so fast,
in less than 5 days time I would be a lonely soul once more:(
Sometimes I really wish to be very selfish so that I wont lose you to the nation,
but what can I say, since I am unable to do anything for such things.

Guess the only thing I can do to ensure that I am doing the right thing,
is to keep my mind in sanity so that I would be able to regulate myself,
until the day you book out, so that I would be able to see you again:)

but then I have to ask myself whats gna keep me in sanity while you are away?
Work, hmm thats provided that they give me the shifts I requested?
School assignments, hope the workload would be good enough to keep my mind occupy,
heard that there would be alot of cutting and lamination to do again this semester,
but I guess my mind is beyond my control at times,
as it will float to you unknowingly.

Since young I have been looking forward to public holidays cause those are the days that I dont have school,
but right now not only do I dislike school but I am looking forward to public holidays more than ever!
Why, cause those are the only days I can get the chance to see you:(
Solid 2 whole years or maybe its just 1 year 10 months?
Gosh thats like 22 months, 8035 days, 192852 hours, 11571120 seconds with out you!
omgosh, seriously cant imagine how would things be like

Right now I can feel what I once felt few years back,
the feeling of anxiety and worries are overwhelming,
trying to regulate with all this upcoming situations,
things are happening too fast.

Hope that i would able to surf pass this semester,
as I would say that the last semester,
would definitely be more stressful than the previous ones,
everything seems to be so tense this semester,
but have I guess there would be so many things for me to tell you everytime you book out,
can I still remember what I want to tell you that week,
or I would be too tired to remember a thing,
things are so unpredictable and unexpected after graduation,
would I still be studying or just be working?
who knows, sigh.

sometimes I wonder if history would repeat itself like how it did in July 2009,
after the 2th anniversary was celebrated,
just 2 weeks later things changed.
It really reminded me how things could change drastically in such a short while,
holding that plate reading what was on it,
never fail to make me tear each time I look at it...
crossing fingers that we would just keep counting,
until we have to restart things as by then things would totally be a different chapter for us,
cause its a new beginning to the journey to be family,
but would that even happen?
let time tell....

Cheers.
God Bless you.
Tears cant be held when the time comes.
However, I promised that ever happens,
you would have no idea that I did or occur,
cause when I do so you wont ever know when it did:)

Confession VI+ VII

2011-10-30T01:28:00.002+08:00

Hmm, though the time we had today was a short and maybe temperamental plus weird,
I would say that it doesnt really matter what are the horrible things that happened today:)
Cause what matter the most today is that I finally got that 'Fallen Star' on me:)
Dont ask me why I kept mentioning 'Fallen Star' guess it kind of mean something to me,
but I have yet to know why do I seem to like it so much?

Maybe...
You are so mesmerise and attracted to the Star,
that you are so sick and tired of seeing it shining in the sky,
as the Star would not be shining for you anymore,
so one day you decided to come up with a plan to ensure that the Star shines only for you
You hit the Star so hard that it fell to the sky,
you ran after the star as it fells down from the dark sky,
hoping that when it lands no one else will be able to catch the Star but only you.
You want that Star to belong to you,
no one else but you can enjoy how it glows and shines.
The Shine can be seen by your eyes,
it glamours only for you and no one else.
The reason why you will hit it down, cause it's shines is only for your eyes,
you dont wish to share the star with anyone else,
You finally got the Star,
found the correct ambiance, you took the Star out and wore it for her:)
am I just right to say things this way?

love is just selfish, but sometimes love can make on selfless too.

There were times when the both of us act selfishly,
for the sake of having more time and love from the opposite gender,
but when it comes to selfless act,
I would definitely admit that you are more selfless than I am,
dont ask why would I say that,
cause my heart feels that way:)

Cheers.
God Bless You:)
2nd day of wearing,
but the time left with you is running out fast

Something to think about

2011-10-27T23:49:00.000+08:00

Came across this image on facebook, its seriously so true. This was something was yearn through out the whole entire vacation, unfortunately it failed to happen ans so yeah thats a sad thing:( But its okay, I definitely believe that we would have more than an opportunity to do so:)

People always think that when you sleep together, there’s always something that is happening in between the sheets and the bed. But let me tell you, It’s not always like that. The feeling of actually hugging each other until you fall asleep, the warmth of each other’s breath, and the total happiness in the morning when you wake up right beside them. Everything may sound so good to be true, but sometimes it takes a lot of responsibility and love to be able to be as wholesome as possible. Sleeping with your special someone is one of the most heartwarming experiences you’ll ever have. No nothing, simply hugging and smiling yourself to sleep.

Cheers.
God Bless you:)
Hugging you, lying in your embrace till the world comes to an end,
would be my final wish,
the last person I would ever want to see before my eyes close forever,
would nonetheless be you

Confession V

2011-10-26T23:11:00.002+08:00

there wasnt really much nice things to talk about or post previously

but do hope to make things clear:)

Never once thought that you were a mere pauper,

but always treated you as my prince charming,

though the treatment differs,

Never once treated you like a money tree,

but more like a fengshui money plant for our little business;D hahas

It hurts all the way down to my bone whenever you said the above things,

that whats the tears start flowing down,

dont like to tear but certainly such words just triggers it.

Really liked the porkchop you made yesterday even though it went from 3 to 1 course,

but still enjoy mashing up the potato cutting the porkchop since I was too lazy to use knife;p

Hmm back to the stone age time, where we use our hands and little fingers to dig in;D

Was surprised that it was the same taste as my grand's porkchop,

thats why I even ate the bone;p sounds like a dog I know,

but thats what I usually do if the pork was awesome!

Sorry if this post is short, as I am really tired,

definitely post a longer one tmr:)

Cheers.

God Bless you:)

A fallen star will always be down,

it will never be able to shine so brightly in the sky again,

unless there is a miracle that some one is able to go through all means to ensure that the star is back,

shining only for you

Confession IV

2011-10-25T00:12:00.001+08:00

Why would I not be bothered to be mad with you lately,
cause with the time left for the both of us,
why would I want to do that when I can make full use of the time for more memorable moments?:D
Not sure if you would think that way but happy and joyful moments is my first priority now:)
Really felt very bad to learn what had happened at Tiffany & Co,
just because your dressing was quite casual,
the staff either avoided you, pretended to be busy with something or simply ignoring you,
until you approached them for help.
When will staff at boutiques learn how to welcome and treasure every single one of the customers who walked through they doors,
quite a sad thing to learn that the staff at Singapore's Tiffany & Co,
still doesnt treat their customer equally without judging from their dressing, attitude, appearance, etc
Definitely would not be surprised if customers are turned off by such attitudes,
choosing to walk out of the place than to make a purchase.
Thanks for ignoring that awful customer service and hold on just to get something for you love one;D
appreciate what have been done!

Lets just say tmr would be a day to looking forward to,
maybe it would be the first time you whop up a 3 course lunch for someone special in your heart.
Hope things would turn out as fine and nicely as expected and yearned for

Something to think about while you are away,
my girl would not be able to spend a single cent on polishes for these two weeks,
until I am out to give her my approval which the possibility is really low that I would.

Cheers.
God Bless You:)
Things may change while you are away,
so would the feelings for you:)
But you definitely dont have to worry,
cause the change would be a positive one,
it will not decrease but increase immersely

Confession III

2011-10-23T23:25:00.002+08:00

Was suppose to write a post every day until the day we part,
but I missed out 3 days of not writing anything;p
busy with school, tired, etc
all of them are excuse, if I dont take the opportunity to write now,
when will you be able to read what I write after separation?
But that sounds more like I should write daily,
so when you can finally read them, you will still be able to know what you have missed out,
while you are away all these time:)

If you are ever curious why is it a confession,
for the first two posts they were all about things that i havent really been honest,
or should i say its buried beneath my hard for a long time, I would say.

even though we didnt say it verbally,
our heart seems to know that we are competing with time to spend as much time as possible with each other,
it seems to be a mutual thing that the both of us wna maximise the time we spent with each other.
from the two little mini 'vacation' to the days left.
Time seems to be a crucial and evil thing to the both of us.

While trying to ensure that the both of us are spending as much time with each other as possible,
on the low side still trying my very best to cope with the horrible curse and addiction,
I know you are trying to comfort me by telling me its a hobby,
not a curse, I just have to learn how to cope with it.
But sometimes I do feel that I am a gambler only thing its well packaged into such a manner that
I am able to keep them for good, you may say that I still earn alittle from it,
but those earning are like those gamblers who have won a bet,
then those that I bought and like are just as good as i lose the bet,
I really hate myself infecting such an addiction.
But I do hope that I would gain something from your departure,
stop going out, staying at home all day either doing work/ packing room or just rest at home.
I really want to stop all these addiction.
Do I need to seek psychiatrist help?

Since the day we first met at interview,
till now things have changed so drastically,
so do the feelings towards each other, 180 degrees changed
but yet we will be separated due to commitments.
Will things change due to commitments,
or this will be an obstacle to test for true love.
Departure for good, separation forever,
or the start of something even better than before.

Cheers.
God bless you:)
Someone once told me that I was the star of his life,
but the star soon fall into darkness.
Now, I want to be the brightest star shining in your life,
until the day i stop breathing,
I hope I shall be the last star.

Confession II

2011-10-19T22:05:00.000+08:00

As the time spent together decreases the days,
I felt a change ever since that day,
swear to god that I didnt mean to tear,
but I just cant help it, it was too overwhelming due to those reasons,
piling up one after another.
Bottling it, swallowing them, as the crack slowly appear,
so did the tears.

I realised that it has been quite awhile I started writing for you until recently,
cause I really have no where else to share my thoughts and feeling,
this seems to be the best and ideal option for me to do so.
Thinking of you day and night is all that I ever wished for,
right now even though we are next to each other,
my mind and soul has flew all the way to your side.
Cant imagine what will happen in that 2 weeks, will it be worst or similar to Siem Reap.
Still I really wish to cope with numerous things and hope that I can work like nobody's business,
numbing myself, until you can appear again.
Wish to adopt your life when you were hurt emotionally in relationships,
work the hell out of yourself like nobody knows and cares then just go to school,
reach home shower sleep, too tired to think of anything, hoping to see you in dreamland

Its not that you never do it or havent tried your very best,
the problem just lies with me?
you are right of what I have turned into,
which I must seriously stop and controlled to get everything that have down the drain,
back into it all over again.
Really wish there is enough for me to set aside a certain amount for the things I would wish to get,
everything for shopping!
Everytime when I wish to stop this month,
there would always be new things getting my attention that will be released in next month or so,
how can this continue?
Honestly, I swear that I am aiming to stop by December.
From December onwards, no more spending above 100,
Unless you approve on the sale, like above 20% then I will get it,
if not it will be out of question

Clothes, Nail Polishes, Shoes, Bags, Wallets.
These things make me drools most of the time, its all these things that kills me the most.
Even though most of them were from myself,
but things are not suppose to be spent this way.
I MUST STOP, I MUST PROCRASTINATE 2 knifes, I must hit 2 knifes by the end of Feb!

Cheers.
God bless you:)
Your presence is all that I wished for,
your safe return is all that I ever prayed for.
My addiction is is all that I ever want to be down history permanently.

Confession I

2011-10-18T22:43:00.000+08:00

The number of days left, seem to grow lesser as the minute hand ticks on the clock,
my mind is in a total turmoil lately, not just about a thing or two.
It may just be half a month, like the trip to Siem Reap.
But something was really missing then, knowing that I shouldnt be doing this,
I am sorry I cant help it, as the deadline is getting closer each day,
I am really trying my best to suppress the unnecessary emotions,
I really am not trying to make you feel bad, thats something I will never want to do.

When the day comes, it will be worst then flying for Indochina,
cause we can still communicate, but this I doubt we can,
its seems worst than quarantine.
2 weeks is neither too long or too short,
but 2 weeks is really an agonising process for me to go through,
needless to say 2 years without you,
when I have slowly grown so close and attached to you,
tell me what can this be

I havent been able to control myself lately, things have been spiraling out of control ever since September.
Time and again you have been heeling yourself in disappointments,
telling yourself to believe that one day I will change,
Yes the change did come, did a little tiny differences but it was short lived.
It as a disaster in a pretty costume.
The change have made situation gone from bad to worst,
worsening the problem that was meant to be solved,
you were right that I cant, cause my procrastination wasnt as strong as my will.
That weakness was more than just lethal, but a dead sentence for eternity.

You have changed as you have promised,
but I did not, your faith in me is as strong as your love in me.
You heartfelt warnings never once failed to turn into deaf ears,
until the sharp piercing pain was slowly sinking in when trouble came knocking on to my door.
The so called harsh reality removed my disillusions,
the realisation was hard, it feels like gambling,
the gambler will never know when to stop until one has won back all that is lost or won even more.

Being a workaholic, would not solve the issue forever, just temporary,
learning how to curb with spending or spending within one means is easier to be said that done.
Will definitely start from now on at least

Cheers.
God Bless You,
My soul will always follow you,
Your safe return is all that I wished for.
Please help me, I really want to do so.

Just for you

2011-08-22T20:30:00.003+08:00

the clock is ticking the slowly,

but the anticipation never stops,

the eagerness just grows.

never knows how you really feel,

knowing that you never will really say it,

but i hope i feel right about you:)

Cheers.

God Bless you:)

traces of us

2011-07-23T00:22:00.003+08:00

no matter what happens,

i will alws be able to see you right before my eyes.

reminding of all the happy moments that we had.

the laughters we share whenever we were tgt,

the smiles we exchanged tgt when we met.

from east to west, north to south,

footsteps will alws be relaid with a new set,

but do you feel the same as me,

when you go through the same thing as me?

it makes me wonder...

sometimes as i thought of those wonderful memories,

the unwanted ones will slowly drift by,

haunting my mind like a horrible nightmare.

there were times you haunt me in my dreams for almost a week,

bitter or sweet?
i would just say both.

but you never fail to make me smile,

whenever i see you,

the sight of you makes me feel at ease,

just wish you were by my side all the time.

hoping that happy things will never end.

cheers.

god bless you:)

something to ponder

2011-07-12T22:13:00.002+08:00

what do each quarrel mean to each lovers out there?
to understand each other?

to know each other better?
to find out whether you are really the one?
to realise if this relationship can be salvage?
or maybe to know the true power of love?

the answer differs from the various perspectives(:

hopefully i saw the real thing that you yearned for,

after all the nasty conversations,

finally there was something coming from the heart,

from the bottom of the heart.

it was something that i thought i have no longer have hope in,

but at the very crucial point, i was proven wrong.

i was more than a happy to be proven wrong(:

but i know nothing good lasts,

then i was enlighten if everything good would last,

we wont be able to see the next good thing wont arrive:)

i would definitely play by fate and maybe fate would tell me if intuition was right:)

my intuition was right at first,

but my intuition lead me to the wrong path in the past,

however, i hope not for this time.

i may not be sure with what im thinking and saying now,

but one thing for sure i wna know is that i want things to be right:)

god bless you,

cheers:)

nth

2011-02-17T13:32:00.003+08:00

nothing will make you be determined to change forever,
not even me.
i will never be able to see my dreams of us living happily ever after,
as everything good comes to an end.
i shall not dream for a prince charming anymore,
even tho i know that such things only happen in fairytale,
let me just live in my dreams forever.

the sorries mentioned yesterday,
mark the end already.

the end

2011-02-16T21:49:00.002+08:00

im sorry for all the things that i have done,
for all the hurt i have inflicted to you for the past one year since day 1.
im sorry for everything that was not worth tolerating.
im sorry for all the things.

im sorry that my apology has marked the end of everything.
im sorry that my apology has put an end to every single thing.
im sorry that my apology has been placed with a fullstop behind.

cheers.
god bless you;)
nites.

reasons

2011-02-12T18:17:00.003+08:00

o
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these images are taken from tumblr(:

wanting this and that,
my demands are simple.
but giving up is chosen before even trying.
selfish, demanding, ignorant,
irritating, naggy, bitch,

maybe its not meant to last.
at first i thought that it so fortunate,
having the same horoscope.
but its seems to be a bad thing afterall,
or maybe its a
fair share of happiness and resentment.
reading through those emails sent,
its seems that there is disappointment as instructions werent follow.
those words typed and wrote.
no point talking abt the past,
when no one is there to appreciate
reading through those text received,
thinking through those promises given
and reflecting whats going on,
its really realisation.
realisation to what i have been doing,
how much i have sacrificed,
i know how much we have sacrificed,
in the end knowing that it wont work
watching those videos taken,
it still feels the same as before.
including another,
feeling it alone all by myself(:
with no regrets, as i had tried and experience them(;
it was sweet and good

why is there still bickering,
cause im irritating,
cause im naggy,
cause im demanding,
cause im nv understanding,
cause im still in love with you

no idea if you still visit this place like you used to,
just enjoy coming here to clear all my thoughts.
it makes me feel better,
not so tense and tight up by all these torturing issues.
guess these are all the things i gta vent out at the moment,
there maybe more on the way to come,
if it doesnt ends.

eyes feeling sore,
throat feeling dry and pain
head splitting into two
what must i do to alleviate everyth to restore the peacefulness

cheers,
god bless you(;

dark sky, cloudy days

2011-02-10T12:21:00.003+08:00

wednesday and thurs,
for 2 consecutive weeks nth good had been happening,
all i had know is that good things never last no matter how its being maintained,
the foundation wasnt strong,
the determination wasnt there.

no matter how heated it had become,
all i ever wanted was just you.
no one else but you,
but seems like you dont seem to know that.
if not i wont hear those harmful and spiteful things.
instead of those spiteful things,
cant they be replace with sweet little things?
had changed to that, but doubt its noticed.
i have tried, i had.
but gone unnoticed

cheers.
god bless you;)

AM I RIGHT

2011-02-02T22:01:00.002+08:00

A picture speaks a thousand words,
dont you agree?

sometimes i wished i never met you,
but how would life be without you?

will you be there by my side,
when i need you no matter whats the circumstance?

cheers.
god bless you:)

love the joy all of us spend together each time,
reminds me of the good old days:)

affected

2011-02-01T15:11:00.002+08:00

even tho i may not know her,
but i feel for her.
for what i went through a similar thing
surprise by the actions
surprise by the betrayal
surprise by the heartless person

tell me what does he or she need to know to finally understand,
understand that whatever they have done are all for the sake of you,
your future, their future.
you broke it,
broken something that you used to mend it for her,
something that you tried so hard to get,
but you just let it slip through your fingers.
for the sake of sth you think its worthwhile.

think twice, think thrice,
dont do something regretful.
nothing is too late to mend,
unless you had given up.

whats the three words,
they are just words that mean nth,
when it ends.
everyth just ends with those epic sentences.

dear world,
when will they ever wake up

cheers.
god bless you:)
be strong my dear,
true love is never flawless
but there are obstacles both have to overcome together.
im losing faith in love.

disappointments but expected

2011-01-31T22:14:00.002+08:00

saw the texts, heard the words,
but i didnt expect you to be part of making history about you.
he was right people do change without showing any signs.
he was always right enlightening me,
he seems to be the one whose making whatever in me in equilibrium.
he gave me the warnings that i chose not to heed,
but what he said wld slowly reveal.

things have been happening so fast,
heard about it,
but i was hoping things were not what it seems,
guess it was somehow expected.
what had happened, will happen again,
its just a matter of time,
that things will repeat.
a leopard cant change it's spot,
needless to say love.

when through what she been through,
the hurt, the torment, its speechless.
what has happened to her,
will also happened to you.
time will know when will happen.
just hope you know when to let it go.
be rationale

lets just said,
after what happened,
i sort of know that true love is hard to find,
words of humankind can never be true,
only time can prove that to you.
time has been proving to lovers out there,
only the strongest stands and lasts.

cheers.
god bless you;)
be strong my dear one,
we are all behind you.
see the true colors

selfish protection

2011-01-24T21:42:00.001+08:00

what do you want from me.
told you about it, get shellings
dont tell, also get shellings.
seems like not saying it out was a better option,
at least it wont be that miserable,
everything is happening at the wrong time.
why cant you be more forgiving and understanding,

what you think is right,
is just hurting me and pressurising me.
what worst,
saying that I am crossed of you over him,
please I am crossed for what you have done.

but no matter how hard i put it across,
you still went over the line,
investigator questioning a criminal,
I am your criminal.

SPARE A THOUGHT FOR ME,
FOR GOD SAKE!

stop cornering me,
I feel breathless.
not your puppet,
I dont wna be puppets with strings drawn all over me,
I dont wna be a puppet with a soul,
I no longer want to be manipulated.
set me free,
stop ruling over me

im really very tired,
worn out,
stressed,
overwhelmed...

thoughts

2011-01-21T21:04:00.002+08:00

pondering lately after so many things,
just why one wont put themself in the other's shoe to think about it.
why wont one just explain and make things clear,
instead of getting all the unnecessary attention and distrust.
making things so difficult for each other,
is it worth the sacrifice?
just for the sake of pride and ego
do you really want to give your love ones up over these?
is it really worth it?

sometime people I just feel that people are rly hard to understand,
tried my best to help and understand,
but I know that wasnt my best,
I will nv go through what you have gone through,
thats why nth I said would make sense.
just dont know what to do.
lost in the maze, lost in the trap that you nv walk out.

all i ever want just to is just to hold your hand and walk out of that shadow together

lost and insecure...

cheers.
god bless you:)

lies.

2011-01-11T19:35:00.003+08:00

lets just say,
no longer feel treasure,
no longer feel at home,
no longer feel any warmth,
when those words came out one after another?

does it make a difference when one changes,
but the other dont see the change?
i guess it does,
neither of us saw or feel the change in any of us.
the argument just gets worst,
none wna back down or give in.

neither of us like to be scolded with vulgarities or swear words,
but those words just come out smoothly without thinking twice,
even how irritated or piss one is.
there were times when one reflects,
why dont say it back,
since the other just say it like a running tap?
even tho one doesnt know what is the answer,
one decided to back down and not say them,
cause the feeling of it isnt good.

no idea why have another turn into a monster,
a monster that one doesnt see anything in anymore,
one doesnt feel any connection anymore,
one doesnt feel the warmth in the nest that it feels home,
one doesnt feel any love in it,
one just wna leave what it once thought to be home.

the other no longer ache upon the sight of those swollen eyes,
the other no longer ache when its gone,
the other no longer feel the same way the other used to.
the other no longer want one anymore,
the other just made one bleed and tear more than ever.

tired of all the events that happened concurrently,
one just want peace to be restored.
one just want to be alone,
unless everything goes back before how things started off,
as unofficial..
if not one just want to be alone all by itself.

cheers,
god bless you:)
unofficial is what one wants right now,
if not one is fine with alone forever

lick

2010-10-25T21:45:00.002+08:00

lets just say you are the frighten little creature,
while im that 'cat' trying to lick you;)
thats the express you alws give when im 'torturing' you:)
somewhere in that little creature's heart,
he knows that the cat mean no harm to him;)

cheers.
god bless you;)
my tall tree<3

yog

2010-09-30T19:21:00.002+08:00

its been dead for 2 whole months.
so many things had happened over these 2 months,
from intern to yog then to intern again,
now im finally having my hols for less than a month?
such a sad thing:(
mbs and chalet are coming,
yet i dont seem to be excited for mbs?
what about chalet?
its an ambivalent attitude towards it, due to a handful of reasons.
but im such a lazy bum to pack for both of the trip;p

at intern, a boy took my heart away;)
he was what i have been looking forward for during intern,
his smiles made my day there,
his laughter brightens me there,
his hugs gave me warmth in the chilling centre:)
he was the one who made me miss intern.
all im left with is pictures of him,
but im contented with what i have;D

saving up for the new itouch,
gta work very hard to get it asap!
but by then i will have a big hole in my pocket,oOps.
results are coming out tmr:s
crossing fingers like mad!
the sun burnt is aching!
but i still cant get the tan i want;(

cheers,
god bless you;)

a kiss away

2010-07-25T21:41:00.002+08:00

today i had was closed to doing something but didnt.
first, i was a kiss away from eating something out of this world.
next, i was just a step away from an accident as i walked aimlessly along the streets,
lastly, i was just a hand away to getting something i want.

too many things happened today,
it was not only confusion,
but mainly an eye opener and disappointments.

cheers
god bless you;D
srsly wished i was there by your side...

not giving in

2010-07-20T14:23:00.002+08:00

in a midst of an heated argument, none wants to give in.
when one finally decides to apologise and give in,
one didnt give in due to enlightenment,
but just wanting to end the entire argument.
the other one sense that the sorry was just a mere sarcasm,
not because the one has found out the mistake they made.

when one seriously know what mistakes they had done,
and decides to seriously change for the sake of the other one
its too late.
as the other one was already too hurt and heartbroken during those heated argument.
that dont seem to be happening in this situation.
one said not to rank up the past,
so the promises made in the past are no longer valid?
anything that one had said can just simply turn into another meaning in future?

was really hoping to hear some consoling words,
but what i heard apparently seems to be a total opposite.
it just made things worst,
causing my heart to sink deeper than ever.

cheers
god bless you;)
tell me that both of us seriously need each other no matter what.

screw

2010-07-05T20:44:00.002+08:00

you didnt like the way you have become,
dont have to compromise.
you dont have to change your eating habits, dressing etc.
just be who you are, it doesnt matter.
since it seems like you are being forced to comply.
no longer have to change in any aspect of your life,
from food to dresscode.

if all i was trying to do, seems to be forcing you to change,
then i shall not intervene anymore.
or should i say right now, i dont even have to bother anymore.

to be honest the dressing part was to gide your flaws,
since you think i just wna change you to suit me.
then lets just return things to normal.
back to where we once belong:)

i dont wna have anymore hopes in anything related to sugar,
i just want to remain plain, mundane and just simple:)
i dont want anything to do with sweets,
too much sweet things gives me diabetes
im already suffering from its symptoms.
indulging in too much sweets things bring lethal side effects.
i dont wna get health problems.

those words i heard ytd,
was just good enough to pull me down from the tip of a mountain,
anyway its all over.
never once did i feel so speechless,
never once did i feel so crash,
never once did i feel so disappointed,
never once did i feel so screwed...
maybe everything should just return back to where it belongs.

cheers.
god bless you;)
returning to where i belong

so many things

2010-06-30T20:33:00.002+08:00

there so many things that i wna tell you,
so many things to whisper in your eye,
numerous things i want to put into words to let your ears hear,
countless things i want to do it together with you,
uncountable times i want to go shopping with you,
but is there sufficient time to let me fulfill all these?

those words that i want to tell you,
they have been held back, due to certain circumstances.
wish you have been there,
wish you were beside me,
wish you could,
wish you had.
but i know why you cant.

the fun we had,
the joy you provided,
was something irreplaceable.

cheers.
god bless you:)
when i get older, i will be stronger

sat

2010-06-29T22:32:00.002+08:00

thought of the weekend,
cutting of hair, then maybe see how?
down with eye infection from the left eye to the right,
hope it will not be as bad as the left one,
I cant afford to be sick at this point of time.

times flies, that day maybe from a day that i look forward,
to a day that i dont quite look forward to due to certain reasons.
its just a matter of weeks?
no, now its just a matter of days.
it cant be removed no matter what, but scarred.

sorry for all the unnecessary quarrels these few days,
cause there were things that i yearned to say,
but intern was in the way, which made me very frustrated.
nth i said will make a change, unless it ends.
by but then it will be over.

cheers.
god bless you;)
have you done your monthly journals?

?

2010-06-17T21:08:00.002+08:00

i have my reasons for every actions,
but in your eyes it seems to be something that cannot be accepted.
its alright, i dont blame you.
since you cant accept it i dont see a point to force on it.

cheers.
god bless you:)
give me the energy i need to walk down this route.

if we hold on together

2010-06-10T20:33:00.002+08:00

finally i get to see the familiar face,
that i havent get to see for a day:)
yes, i know that you are elated,
yes, i can sense your mood,
yes, i know you are:)

short, it may be.
fast, it may seems.
contented, that will never be the case:)
same sentiments about what was in your mind,
but the desire for a longer time or maybe endless time,
will never happen for the time being;(

the clock says 5.45, its time for you to leave.
6 is the reporting time to prepare for the night
prefer the morning shift than the later one,
so you can end earlier.
but its okay, gta just bear with it until the end of july,
which is the next month? i hope:(

cheers.
god bless you:)
every love has a unique meaning behind it:)

tell me abt it

2010-06-09T20:35:00.002+08:00

after today i wonder,
i realised a pattern
each time i feel drowsy or unwell,
i always thought of the warmth, cosy-ness, comfort and care you provide.
i admit that i never fail to dream for the day when im lying sick in my bed,
waking up after the effects of drowsiness wears off,
the moment i open my eyes, i see you right before me:)
smiling straight into my face,
then you said that my porridge is ready for me to eat at the dining table;)
something tells me you will cook fish porridge;p

but i know whats your replies,
which just bring me down to the bottom.
i wont be angry, i understand:)

cheers.
god bless you:)
all i ever wanted is you:)

was i too greedy?

2010-06-08T21:35:00.002+08:00

was i too greedy,
or am i simply too fortunate?
first that walking prop,
now the shoulder accessories?
im sorry:)

cheers.
god bless you:)
tell me more about it, can you:)

let it go

2010-06-01T23:04:00.002+08:00

finally understand how important it is to learn how to let things go,
than to let it bother you for life.

watched this show where this man lose his whole family in a mid air crash,
he lose his wife and two children.
at the crash site, he searched for the bodies of his family.
he found his daughter's body intact,
with a little of bruised on her face,
his wife and son's body was in pieces.
he was so depressed and grieved over it,
his condition worsen until his mentally unsound.

he made a big tombstone with the image of his family at the cemetery
ever since the crash, he stayed at the grave day and night hoping for a miracle.
as time passed, he grew more haggard each day,
he cant get over the tragedy.
he got so obsessed with whose the one to be blame for this incident,
that he waited for years to find the culprit,
he killed the guy...

was it the power of love controlling him,
or was it because he cant get over it and start afresh?
just felt that he did it with 90% of love,
5percent of insanity, 1percent of cant get over it
with a 4 percent of i must take revenge.

cheers,
god bless you:)
wish you wont turn out like him in future,
dont want you to follow his footsteps:)

memories

2010-05-29T23:14:00.002+08:00

was doing assignment,
something in my mind just went wrong i guess.
my fingers just typed whatever it wished,
it enter the place, my fingers were leading the way.
unknowingly i took a step into somewhere i havent step in for quite sometime.

even though i know i shouldnt have done so,
but something was making me to do so.
i went in, my fingers navigate me.
my eyes brought me to the destination,
my eyes threw me back to that point of time,
my mind was playing tricks with me:)

i wouldnt deny the facts about certain things,
i enjoy it, it wont be a past tense,
cause i know it will never be.
reading through time,
it felt as it i stepped into a room of negatives,
playing through roles of it:)
looking at myself in the past, from the present point of view?
no idea why i just dont feel sick of doing the same thing,
the atmosphere and the feeling of looking at it over and over again:)

not just what i was seeing that felt familiar,
the things i hear,
the feeling that i was in,
everything just seems so surreal:)
i was abt to sink into that step,
close to losing myself to it:)
until reality gave me a wake up call,
pulling back to where i am now.
taking a closer look at my environment,
to give myself a double confirmation.
yes, it was a dream i fell upon and into:)

maybe i just want it and prefer it to remain as a dream,
cause i wont feel a single streak of hurt, sadness from it:)
unless i come back to reality...

sometimes i wish i can just sleep on my bed,
not having to rise and shine for the brand new day ahead.
lets just say, i never once look forward to it:)

cheers.
god bless you:)
my voice tell my heartfelt thoughts
my thoughts speak my feelings
my words spoke for my heart:)
amen;)

jaychou's new album

2010-05-20T21:07:00.002+08:00

been listening to jay chou's new album lately,
some of the songs in the album are nice;D
hahas, love the rhythm of the song:)
maybe i should go get the album soon,
or wait for the qing gong ban version of it;D hahas
this song is by him:)

说了再见才

你的笑你的好脑海里一直在绕
我的手忘不了你手的温度
心碎了一地捡不回从前的心跳伤
心碎了一地捡不回从前的心跳伤
心过去我无力逃跑
说再见才发现再也见不到
能不能就这样忍著痛泪不掉
说好陪我到老永恒往哪里找
再次拥抱一分一秒都好

说了再见才发现再也见不到
我不能就这样失去你的微笑
口红待在桌脚而你我找不到
若角色对调你说好不好
说了再见才发现再也见不到
能不能就这样忍著痛泪不掉
说好陪我到老永恒往哪里找
再次拥抱一分一秒都好

天亮了雨下了你走了
清楚了我爱的遗失了
落叶飘在湖面上睡著了
想要放放不掉泪在飘
你看看你看看看不到
我假装过去不重要却发现自己办不到

tell me about it after reading the lyrics of the song,
this is just so true:)
somehow understand why his songs are always one of the choice,
when one is down:)
it seriously describes a person feelings well:0

'爱原来更心碎都可以更细节'
took this line from one of his latest album song;)
guess its so true too:)
even though there are quarrels and heat arguments,
there are still detailed parts that made you treasure it even more;D

cheers,
god bless you:)
thats the reason why i didnt wna let you go:)

2010-05-19T00:56:00.001+08:00

CARAMEL -ISED?!
TELL ME ABOUT IT;D

CHEERS

GOD BLESS YOU;D

wrap my words around you

2010-04-27T21:07:00.002+08:00

was told to keep listening to 'if you're not the one'
but i gave you my reply:)
its true for certain part of the song, hahas.
however, i chose not to listen to the song,
due to certain reasons that i have already state:p
just felt this song was quite a good song too?:)
still the same singer, but different song;p

the title is
wrap my words around you;D

Is it fair to write a song to a woman?(man)
Is it fair play to try and win her(his) heart?
Is it right to bring her(his) sonnets
In the morning time?
To express the first few
Longings when they start
To express the first few
Longings when they start

Is it right to let her(his) feelings
Rise to catch you?
Is it OK when her heart begins to fall?
Would you blame me if I
Wrap my words around you girl(boy)?
Would I wrong you
To say anything at all?
Would I wrong you
To say anything at all?

But if I wrap my words around you
Wrap my words around you
If I wrap my words around you
Would you stay
Would you stay, would you?
Wrap my words around you
Wrap my words around you
If I wrap my words around you
Would you stay
Would it play with your heart?

Am I a hunter if
I send poems to please you?
Am I a cad if
I mean everything I say?
Should I even let you know
This song's about you girl (boy)
Just because I want to see you smile today
And my words may bind you
To me much too tightly
You may choke on them if we fall apart
It's not fair to write a song to a woman
Because a woman(man) takes a song into her heart
Because a woman(man) takes a song into her heart

So let me wrap my words around you
Wrap my words around you
Wrap my words around you
Till you stay, till you stay, let me
Wrap my words around you
Wrap my words around you
Darling, wrap my words around you
Till you stay
Would it play with your heart

chose this song,
not with the meaning of using words to smitten you,
its stating every single word of this song that is true.
let my words not only do the talking,
but do the action:)
let my words continue waving every single detail,
let the melody of us extend:)

cheers,
god bless you:)
enjoy what you yearn for:)

lyrics

2010-04-14T20:43:00.001+08:00

給我一首歌的時間
周杰倫

雨淋湿了天空
灰的很讲究
你说你不懂为何在这时牵手
我晒干了沉默
悔的更冲动
就算这次做错也只是怕错过
在一起叫梦
分开了叫痛
是不是说没有做完的梦最痛
迷路的后果
我能承受
这最后的出口在爱过了才有

能不能给我一首歌的时间
紧紧的把那拥抱变成永远
在我的回忆里
你不用害怕失眠
如果你想忘记我也能失忆
能不能给我一首歌的时间
把故事听到最后才说再见
你送我的眼泪
让它留在雨天
越过你划的线我定了勇气的终点

我晒干了沉默
悔的会很冲动
就算这次做错也只是怕错过
在一起叫梦
分开了叫痛
是不是说没有做完的梦最痛
迷路的后过
我能承受
这最后的出口
在爱过了才有有
你说我不该不该在这个时候
说了我爱你
要怎么证明我没有说谎的力气
请告诉我而暂停算不算放弃
我只有一天的回忆

你说我不该不该在这个时候
说了我爱你
要怎么证明我没有说过的力气
请告诉我暂停算不算放弃
你说我不该不该在这时候才说爱你
要怎么证明我没有说谎的力气
我只有一天的回忆

彩虹
周杰倫
哪裡有彩虹告訴我
能不能把我的願望還給我
為什麼天這麼安靜
所有的雲都跑到我這裡

有沒有口罩一個給我
釋懷說了太多就成真不了
也許時間是一種解藥
也是我現在正服下的毒藥

看不見妳的笑我怎麼睡得著
妳的聲音這麼近我卻抱不到
沒有地球太陽還是會繞
沒有理由我也能自己走

妳要離開我知道很簡單
妳說依賴是我們的阻礙
就算放開但能不能別沒收我的愛
當作我最後才明白

看不見妳的笑要我怎麼睡得著
妳的聲音這麼近我卻抱不到
沒有地球太陽還是會繞會繞
沒有理由我又能自己走掉
釋懷說了太多就成真不了
也許時間是一種解藥解藥
也是我現在正服下的毒藥

been listening to these two songs lately to put me to slp.
the melancholy tune just describe my mood.
yup, he was right i gta cool down in order to think and ponder carefully,
so that i wont make the wrong step that will make me regret in future:)
heed his advice, made the decision.
decide to leave things to fate, instead of making the decision selfishly.
found the answer, very happy with it:)

cheers.
god bless you:)
i found the answer that im happy with,
what about you,
have you found your's?

its all over

2010-04-13T21:29:00.002+08:00

guess i was really wrong about it,
kept thinking that the sweetness of it will just appear despite the rain,
but guess no matter how long i waited,
how many buses drove passed right before my eyes,
it just never happen.

even though my bus came,
something just made me stayed.
that something was called hope:)
2,3,4 buses left,
still not a single glimpse of light.

from drizzles, heavy downpour to just rain,
still i dont see the sun in the rain.
waited until time was up,
nothing.
so i just decided to leave for home;D

those words mentioned in those text,
it will always remain fresh in my mind.
it maybe just nonsense,
that spilled out of in a moment of anger.
but the hurt is inflicted,
same goes for you, i know you are hurt too.
its just like glass, once its shattered,
no matter what is done to salvage it,
nothing can removed any of those cracks.
even though i once believe that only you are the key to removed them,
but that dont seem to be the case anymore, i guess?

cheers,
god bless you.
what goes around, comes around.
happiness are short lived.
everything and anything good will always come to an end.

did i make the right choice?

2010-04-12T20:46:00.002+08:00

was today suppose to be a joyous occasion?
but it wasnt the case.
was it a memorable day?
it was in a negative aspect.

after what happened today, i ask myself and ponder.
if i had made the right choice by to return?
somehow regret i guess,
or maybe just needed time to adapt to the arrogance.

things just simply kept going downwards today,
it was simply horrid.
kept looking out for a familiar outline that may stand out from the crowd,
maybe that will simply just bring the sun to shoo away the black clouds.
even though i know that wont happened,
but cant help it but kept looking in that direction.
say it was out of foolishness or just dumbness.
all i wanted to do was just to see that miracle happened right before my eyes.
but its okay, everything was well expected so it wasnt that bad after all.

cheers,
god bless you:)
the happiness was short lived,
over whelmed and dominated by anger.

long good bye

2010-04-01T20:14:00.000+08:00

Ronan Keating
Long Goodbye

I know they say if you love somebody
You should set them free (so they say)
But it sure is hard to do
Yeah, it sure is hard to do
And I know they say if they don't come back again
Then it's meant to be (so they say)
But those words ain't pulling me through
Cos I'm still in love with you
I spend each day here waiting for a miracle
But it's just you and me going through the mill
(climbin' up a hill)

[Chorus]

This is the long goodbye
Somebody tell me why
Two lovers in love can't make it
Just what kind of love keeps breaking a heart?
No matter how hard I try
You're gonna make me cry
Come on, baby, it's over, let's face it
All that's happening here is a long goodbye

Sometimes I ask my heart did we really
Give our love a chance (just one more chance)
and I know without a doubt
I turned it inside out
And if we walked away
would make more sense (only self defense)
But it tears me up inside
Just to think we still could try
How long must we keep riding on a carousel
Going round and round and never getting anywhere?
(on a wing and prayer)

[Chorus]

This is the long goodbye
Somebody tell me why
Two lovers in love can't make it
Just what kind of love keeps breaking a heart?
No matter how hard I try
You're gonna make me cry
Come on, baby, it's over, Let's face it
All that's happening here is the long goodbye

The long goodbye
The long goodbye
This is the long goodbye

Someone please tell me why

Are you ever coming back again
Are you ever coming back again
Are you ever coming back again
I guess I'm NEVER coming back again

cheers.
god bless you:)
smile like you always did:D

in my head

2010-03-31T13:00:00.002+08:00

In My Head
Jason Derulo

Jason Derulo.
Deluga Heights.
J. J. J. J. J. R.
Come on.

Everybody is looking for love. Oh. Oh.
Aint that the reason you're at this club. Oh. Oh.
You aint gonna find a dance with him. No. Oh.
Got a better solution for you girl. Oh. Oh.

Just stay with me now. Say the word and well go.
Ill be your teacher. Ill show you the ropes.
You'll see a side of love you've never known.
I can see it going down, going down.

In My Head, I see you all over me.
In my head, you fulfill my fantasy.
You'll be screaming no.
In my head, its going down.
In my head, its going down.
In my head. Yeah. In my head. Oh yeah.

Some dudes know all the right things to say.
When it comes down to it, its just a game.
Instead of talking let me demonstrate. Yeah.
Get down to business lets skip foreplay.

Just leave with me now. Say the word and well go.
Ill be your teacher. Ill show you the ropes.
You'll see a side of love you've never known.
I can see it going down, going down.

In my head, I see you all over me.
In my head, you fulfill my fantasy.
You'll be screaming no.
In my head, its going down.
In my head, its going down.
In my head.

Break it down. Ay-oh. Come on. Ay-oh. Ay-oh.
You singing to me baby in my head right now. Ay-oh. Ay-oh. Come on.
Shell be screaming out when it all goes down.

Just leave with me now. Say the word and well go. We can go.
Ill be your teacher. Ill show you the ropes.
You'll see a side of love youve never known.
I can see it going down, going down.

In my head, I see you all over me.
In my head, you fulfill my fantasy.
You'll be screaming no.
In my head, its going down.
In my head, its going down.

In my head, I see you all over me.
In my head, you fulfill my fantasy.
You'll be screaming more.
In my head, its going down.
In my head, its going down.
In my head

cheers,
god bless you:)

history

2010-03-31T12:27:00.002+08:00

just read through the old emails in my folders,
that was when i realised how i was introduced to the musical world,
not chart toppers or modern music, etc.
what i meant was instrumental and classical music,
how i got a better understanding of it,
how i somehow became interested, but not to the extend of having passion.
what was the reason that made me feel so soothe and calm:)

just how i wish i can hear those keys again,
from high E to B minor:D
those key notes running through your fingers,
the pace that one has to keep up in order to allow maintain the melody:)
just one wrong key,
the piece will be flawed.
it will no longer be pleasant for the listener's ears.
though i play not know how to play a musical instruments,
but i simply love to see and hear one play:)

maybe one or two piece will always be perfect in my heart,
even though it maybe flawless,
but i seem to see perfection in those flaws?

cheers.
god bless you:)
all i ever needed to calm my nerve,
was sundial dreams:)

tired

2010-03-26T16:40:00.002+08:00

getting freaking tired of things now...
just want to slow down my steps to think why did i choose that at first,
i want to find out the reason that had made me do so,
even if i found the reason i want to know why did i want it that way.
cause whatever im saying now just contradicts every other second.

maybe i have lost the train of thoughts i used to have,
maybe i dont feel the same about things anymore,
even though how much i yearn to make it feel like the way it used to,
but it just seem to be such a tedious task to be done.
maybe i just want to have a break from things,
which i know im getting it very soon,
really soon.
hope that im just merely missing things that i used to enjoy and indulge in the past.

cheers,
god bless you:)

counting down

2010-03-25T22:45:00.003+08:00

its still counting down,
until the day is here to go.
deadline for intern assignments are drawing near,
yet I am not even close to completing half of it:(
the amount of things needed for task 1,
is already gonna kill the hell out of me,
less than a week left, havent even start one task 2,
gotta start on it as fast as possible,
sigh saturday totally burn off,
hope i can at least complete sth on sunday...
feel so dead...

honestly, I am not sure if i should be happy that the date is coming,
its gonna be either a happy or a sad thing for me.
guess when its happening, I will be quite sad.
just tell me what i should do,
just feel so lost,
double sided knife...

cheers.
god bless you:)
gotta rush with work like hell!

sad

2010-03-23T21:15:00.003+08:00

tmr is my judgment day,
yet so many things just seem to be totally screwed.
just how i wish i have some nice music to soothe me,
let me listen,
let me emo,
let me listen to slp.

things just dont seem right,
fear for tmr, fear for the day to come,
fear for all the things.

just hate myself for being so indulged,
why must i be so indulged.
the more i am indulged,
the more i feel hurt.
the more i am indulged,
the more i just wanna get out of the misery.
the more i am indulged,
the more i feel like running away from it,
the further the better,
but it seems to make things worst.

the agony i am in,
just seem to get worst each time,
time seems to be the salt that is constantly sprinkled on my wound.
the wound just never seem to heal,
the pus seems to accumulate more each time,
maybe its just gonna be like a parasite,
harming me deeper.
just wanna get out of this asap,

cheers.
god bless you:)
can you just be my antidote?
end all of my pain...

music

2010-03-20T21:41:00.003+08:00

'its not how well you play it,
its how you feel when you play it'
guess that applies to every musical instrument:)
the tune of every music tells a unique story of the composer,
why do they create that piece,
why do they want to compose it?
cause they want to share their emotions with their listeners,
maybe even find their soul mate in music?:)

guess life will be so boring without music,
the lyrics of some songs just speak up for me;)
those nights without you just seem terrible,
those time without you just seem lost,
those moments without you just seem wrong.

sorry for those unhappy moments,
guess anguish and unhappiness just controlled my thoughts then,
all i ever wanted was just the time we once indulged and enjoyed:)
guess that will not happened again until 5 months later?
i hope, i yearn, i pray;)

cheers.
god bless you:)
counting down to that day to leave,
not counting down to every monday.

running out of patience

2010-03-18T22:56:00.000+08:00

walking around aimlessly,
finding ways to kill time and boredom.
staring at the time every other second,
wondering what time will they appear,
ever felt this way?

i admit that i never enjoy or like to wait for people,
the maximum limit i can ever wait is maybe an hr to two?
after that the temper just cannot be controlled:(
i apologised for that.

maybe should have gone to meet,
parting is always the toughest moment.
then this thought came to my mind,
since parting is the toughest.
why not just dont meet?
then everything will be solved:)

you arrived at your destination,
looked to you in the eyes and bid goodbye,
you replied the same too.
the moment when i tried to grab your hand,
it just simply slipped through my fingers.
you turned to look before walking away,
but your shadow faded from sight as time passed.

my id wants you to stay,
my ego says to just let you go,
my superego reminds me that its time for you to go.
followed my superego and just let you go,
even tho my id wants you to stay so badly.
things wont change,
hopes not too high as usual,
so i wont fall too hard:)

cheers.
god bless you:)
things are still the same,
nothing will change anything.

dilemma

2010-03-16T12:48:00.002+08:00

you cant bear to,
what makes you think that the other bears to?
you dont wish to do it,
what makes you think the other dares?
you dont want to force yourself,
what makes you think the other likes to be forced?
to do something they dont like.

ever come across this situation,
too much time spent with each other,
then you seem to have nothing to talk to each other,
maybe sometimes even taking each other for granted?

it didnt happened to me once or twice,
guess is more than that?
tried changing but that just cant seem to go away.
then when there is lesser time to be spent,
it seems miserable?
yah, true.
everything just seem to be in a whirl?

something one does not anticipate,
is happening right before their own eyes.
whats the best way to run away or maybe to make time flies?
i guess i will prefer to go overseas, to keep myself occupied:)
if possible just keep myself buried with the chunks of work,
since i havent complete my intern tasks;p

cheers.
god bless you:)
counting down,
looking forward to the day after april's fool:D

start working

2010-03-15T20:09:00.003+08:00

hmm, lets just say things were rocky for the past one week.
my bad habit is back again:(
thank god,time managed to simmer that unreasonable me,
guess leaving me alone will allow me to think better:)
reason things out within my head,
think through everything with a clear mind:)

time never waits, time is merciless:)
the day both feared still come fast,
it still has to come to an end,
with a brand new beginning,
along with new obstacles,
and most importantly the will power and tenacity:)

yesterday, seems mystical^.^
liked the end, it was somehow more than what was expected:)
what seems unrealistic,
was happening right before ones' eyes,
unbelievable it maybe,
but it only happens with a belief:)

cheers.
god bless you:)
things will only happen,
when you believe:)

tell me about it

2010-03-08T20:06:00.003+08:00

whatever it is,
just tell me about it:)
all i ever i wanted to know,
is just in that cerebral of your's.
fill me to the brim of the container,
when my ears are all your's:)

cheers,
god bless you:)
children are just like angels:D
they never fail to make me smile:)
be my cupid:)

dancing with tears in my eyes

2010-02-28T12:25:00.002+08:00

Dancing with tears in my eyes
ke$ha

here we go
welcome to my funeral
without you i dont even have a pulse
all alone it's dark and cold
with every move i die

here i go
this is my confession oh
a lost cause nobody my soul
i am so delusional
with every move i die

i have destroyed our life,
it's gone
payback is sick
it's all my fault

I'm Dancing With Tears In My Eyes
just fighting to get through the night
i'm losing it
with every move i die

i'm fading
i'm broken inside
i've wasted the love of my life
i'm losing it
with every move i die

when did i become such a hyprociate
double life, lies that you caught me in
trust me i'm paying for it with every move i die

on the floor im just a zombie who i am is not who i wanna be
i'm such a tradegy with every move i die

i have destroyed our life,
it's gone
payback is sick
it's all my fault

I'm dancing with tears in my eyes
just fighting to get through the night
i'm losing it
with every move i die

i'm fading
i'm broken inside
i've wasted the love of my life
i'm losing it
with every move i die

this is it and now your really gone this time
never once thought i'd be in pieces left behind

I'm dancing with tears in my eyes
just fighting to get through the night
i'm losing it
with every move i die

i'm fading
i'm broken inside
i've wasted the love of my life
i'm losing it
with every move i die

just like this song,
no idea why either.
some of it just describe how i feel at times:)
had fun on friday,
tho im having all the muscle ache right now,
but its still a great experience;D hahas
some unexpected things happen:)
fate or just pure coincidence?
hmm,enlighten me:)hahas.

starting intern tmr!
tho im craving for carbonara and HTCC!
hmm, which one should i get?LOL,hahas.

cheers.
god bless you:)
kisnimriedonerb

exams over

2010-02-22T21:31:00.002+08:00

hmm, exams are finally over;D
ate only one meal for the past two days;)
hmm, one good way to lose weight during exams?
okay, i wasnt on diet,
just that im not feeling well,
thanks to the air con on fri:(

went out with friend today for dinner,
thanks for that 12inch pizza,hahas.
but too bad, i didnt finish the last piece of pizza;D hahas
went hunting for the black shirt for this fri,
bought the one at newlook at 34bucks?
even though i walked from cine down to fareast,
then back to 313 to get the shirt.
thanks for getting me that shirt bro;D
nvm, just buy one just in case i need it for sch next time,
hope i still can wear it by then;x
cross fingers i wont grow fat by then;D

hmm,gna go for a hair cut tmr with dad:D
im gna kiss goodbye to my money,
thanks to daddy!
he wants me to treat him for the cut,lols

gna start working on wed, thurs and sat.
hmm then working on fri night,
hope that night will be a fun, experiential, awesome night!
hahas, lazy to blog alr...

cheers.
god bless you:)
take my hand and bring me to dreamland:)

give me a break

2010-02-10T15:05:00.002+08:00

I NEED A LONG BREAK!

give me a break to think whats going on lately,
give me a break to think twice,
give me a break to think carefully about my actions.

give me a break to recollect about the past,
give me a break to remember things.

give me a break to breathe,
give me a break to catch my breadth.

give me a break isolate myself from reality,
give me a break to find myself back.

give me a break to sort things out,
give me a break to find my goal.

give me a break to find the things,
give me a break to get everything done,
give me a break to finish all thats not done.

give me a break to think what i seriously want,
give me a break to get what i want.
give me a break to plan for what i need,
give me a break to correct things.

give me a break to let me do all the shopping i want,
give me a break to find the satisfaction,
i have long yearn for:)

cheers.
god bless you:)
give me the satisfaction that all i ever need:)

f21

2010-02-04T22:50:00.002+08:00

omg, i wna go f21 to get their accessories!
damn it, Singapore outlets dont have the items that are found on their website!
sigh, kept going around those outlets to check their items,
but they dont have:(

though i still saw the things that make me want to get them;p
feel like going down to get them either tmr after graduation,
or maybe sun before going to mug;p

how, how, how?
wish I can control my spending,LOL
hahas.

cheers,
god bless you:)
you are my sunshine:D
be mine from this very point of time?

phantom

2010-02-04T02:33:00.002+08:00

all these words are taken from phantom of the opera:)
was listening to my nano,
while doing tetl;p

Angels of music

where in this room, he calls me softly,
somewhere inside, hiding
somehow i know he is always with me...

angel of music, guide and guardian
grant to me your glory
angel of music hide no longer
secret and strange angel

Think of Me

Think of me, think of me, fondly
When we've said goodbye
Remember me once in a while
Please promise me you'll try

When you find that once again
You long to take your heart ...

Think of me, think of me fondly,
when we've said goodbye.
Remember me once in a while -
please promise me you'll try.
When you find that, once
again, you long to take your heart back and be free -
if you ever find a moment
spare a thought for me ...

We never said our love was evergreen,
Or as unchanging as the sea -
But if you can still remember,
Stop and think of me ...

Think of all the things
We've shared and seen -
Don't think about the ways things might have been ...

Think of me, think of me waking silent and resigned
Imagine me, trying too hard to put you from my mind

Recall those days, look back on all those times
Thinks of the things, we'll never do
There will never be a day, when I won't think of you

Flower fade, the fruit of summer fade
They have the season so do we
But please promise me that sometimes
You will think of me!

cheers.
god bless you:)
let me be your sunshine,
chasing all the sadness away:)
let me be your sunshine,
making you smile everytime:)
caramel, is all i ever needed,
when I am down:)

mysterious appearance

2010-02-01T21:51:00.002+08:00

omg, i woke up at 8 today,
was 30mins more to sleeping 12hours!
thank god dad fetched me to sch if not im so late for sch,
went to school for only 45mins,
called grand to ask what time will she finish her hair cut,
took a bus down to tow, slept on the way;D
went to walk around orchard while waiting for her call:)
saw some cheap and nice shoes at cotton on,
wanted to get it, then grand called.
took 143 down to UE for jap bbq food;D

was chatting away with grand,
talking about uncle when he called;D
speak of the devil o.O
grand was so happy that he called,
then he said he would call back when i was about to chat with him,lol.
when he called back, he told me sth that made me STUN!
he was in SINGAPORE!hahas.
grand commented that he is alws so mysterious about returning to spore;p
went to 313 to look for him,
as he was doing come CNY shopping!
went to imperial treasure at taka,
for another round of lunch,
bloated after having all the dimsums!
didnt eat much for dinner after that;D

uncle took a bus back to his hotel,
while grand and i walked to ion,
went to f21 to get a bag and shoes from rubi before leaving.
(wish i can control my spending;()
shall not procrastinate any longer!
i must start from now on!

ytd was simply sth that i wished it will just freeze for good,
even minutes before i fell aslp,
that scene was still in my mind,
i was thinking of it,
i was hoping for it,
i was yearning for it,
i was wishing for it,
i was needing it,
until very moment, I WNA HAVE IT!:)

cheers.
god bless you:)
finally give in to your request?
yes, i am:)
i'm your's

continuation

2010-01-27T23:14:00.003+08:00

done with tetl,
decided to rush with that ttrl,
and stay home to do it instead of watching a movie with dad.
read 'i believe you' while doing tetl,
was at chapter 4.
reading chapter 8 now,
while reading, memories flew back,
words like telepathy, intuition and maybe fate?
thoughts like persistence, perseverance and stubborness?
keywords of the past just make me reminisce about the past,
that i somehow long forgotten?

lets just say, im not purposely remembering these things,
neither im still holding on to such things?
i just find it familiar and similar?
that guy gave her a watch for her birthday,
asking her to wear it everyday:)
he gave me a watch on vday last year,
telling me that wearing that watch,
is just like reminding me of him?(sth like that)
but i only wore once, that was on vday.
thats it,the watch just went into my drawer,
moved it to the rest of the things that belongs to him.
those things were just kept in the drawers around my desk,
used to ponder if i should disposed them,
caramel told me to retain them as memories.
headed the advice:)but i never once touch the:)
as somehow or other,
i had anticipated what will happen,
thus i decided to remain a distance with those things:)
its better to be safe than sorry:)

maybe i had confessed to you everything on fri,
maybe i shall just leave it as it is.
some things cant be told within a time,
it takes time, but you will never see an end.
not wanting to remember anything about the past:)
but i gave you my word about it;p
we shall see how things go that day:)
just crossingfingers,
history will not repeat itself in our context of love:)

read finish those 11chapts,
but to read finish everything,
we gta purchase that book,see how first?
if my parents allow, i will get it
if not i will just borrow that book?

cheers.
god bless you:)
just hold me tight,
dont let go no matter what:)

i believe you

2010-01-27T22:01:00.002+08:00

received an email from an anonymous person,
the email name was
'a sad SG junior college love story that i cried upon reading'
guess the title just caught my attention,
click the email,
saw the contents, clicked the link to the youtube trailer,
the uniform on the trailer looks like its from *jc,
then when i saw the ebook, its njc.LOL
the book is 'i believe you'
by low kay hwa:)
feel like getting the book,
read chapt 1-3 alr,
while doing tetl assignment,
decided to focus on tetl first

this is just part of my post,
shall continue blogging later,
once im done with tetl;D

your's

2010-01-25T16:16:00.002+08:00

love sick thats what both of us called it,
when we cant see each other for days;(
other's said that this is because its just the beginning?
i used to agree with this saying,
until i started to have such feelings after so long,
i still am lovesick of that person.
but that love sick feeling just made me feel paranoid,
it wasnt the usual lovesick one always get.

walking along the canal after dinner,
with our hands interlocked:)
caramel felt romantic,
i felt that the moment was sweet and maybe classic?;p
felt sweet instead of romantic,
or maybe both of us felt the same:)
classic cause i never do such a thing before;phehes.
partly, i think its quite fortunate to do that with caramel:D
if 10 years or maybe 50years down the road we are still doing that,
i think its really awesome!

the best thing was there were so many stars tonight;D
more than what i have seen last sat
hmm, if i ever get to wish upon a star,
let eternity be blessed on us?:)

cheers,
god bless you
if i am specially made for you,
means you were meant to be mine forever:)?
tonight,
we flipped open a brand new chapter;D

vday gifts?

2010-01-24T00:10:00.002+08:00

still wondering whats for vday,
or should i just say, im not even sure if im able to go out that day,
or maybe if i will have the mood to,
since exams will be like 4-5 days away then:(
any ideas what will be good?
hmm, still no idea what will be good.

went to sch for proj since 11,
was suppose to do dpl proj,
only manage to do the intro for the essay;p
continued with ladel's video until 8plus?
so guess its more of curtain call for ladel;D
hope we can finish everything for dpl by mon;D

somehow finished watching 16 and pregnant by today?
omg, i watched like 3 episodes in total;D hahas.
BABY SHOWER:D

gotta start collating all of my notes for exams tmr,
copying notes tmr for ladel and dpl,
must start mugging,
if i wna enjoy the first day of new year;D
maybe on the eve and the second day of cny,
i will continue to mug like shit!

cheers.
god bless you;D
I'll come back when you call me
No need to say goodbye
enlighten me for vday;D

vday

2010-01-22T22:58:00.001+08:00

vday seems to be round the corner,
its the same day as chinese new year:)
hema showed me a bottle heart filled with red saga seeds,
she asked me how much will i paid for it?
i simply told her, i wont even buy it,
cause i rather go picked it up myself,
as picking up seems to be a better idea for me?:)

the thought of picking those sagas with my own fingers,
brought me back to what i did on teacher's day last year,
with sheryl from botanical gardens to mt faber.
tho the 'harvest' wasnt as good as i hope for it to be,
i thank god that i didnt find much that day...
the amount i collected was only able to fit into a mini jam bottle.
i will nv forget that coldness in his eyes that day,
when i passed him that bottle of saga.
as in his eyes the bottle meant nth to him.
it was after that incident,
i decided and maybe even swear not to do such a foolish thing ever again.
at the point of time,
'can the guy you once love turned into such a cold blooded creature,
when their heart is no longer with you?'i thought,
the answer i knew all along was a YES.

ask me whats for vday,
no idea whats in my mind.
studies is hogging my mind until march is over,
then my mind is free:)

cheers.
god bless you:)
you wont wna let me quit as an drug addict,
so give me my drug;p

song

2010-01-21T11:30:00.002+08:00

You and I left our troubles far behind
But I still have just one more question on my mind
For all my pals who live in the oceans and the seas
With fronds like these well,
Who needs an anemones?

If I'm your boy
Let's take a shortcut we remember
And we'll enjoy
Picking apples in late September like
We've done for years
Then we'll take a long walk
Through the cornfield
And I'll kiss you
Between the ears

If you're my girl
Swirl me around your room with feeling
And as we twirl
The glow in the dark stars on your ceiling
Will shine for us
As love sweeps over the room
Cause we tend to make
Each other blush

took from owlcity,
the bird and the worm:)

cheers,
god bless you:)
just remain there,
unless you wna reach the pinnacle with me:)

history

2010-01-20T23:42:00.002+08:00

hmm, whatever i post here,
you may think that it seem to be the same as the posts i used to write.
im sorry if they sound the same,
but the fact is cause thats how i seriously feels about you:)
no idea i must use what sort of ways to express them,
sorry if it wasnt that unique, but its true;D

looking at penguin every night,
as i lie on my bed,
looking at the glow in the dark stars on my double decker bed:)
it may seems as a temporary substitute of caramel,
what i seriously want is not penguin to be there,
but caramel to be next to me:)

let your embrace be my pillow,
let your warmth make me feel cosy,
let your gentleness put me to sleep
let me look into your eyes until mine shut:)
you may go when im sleeping soundly.
when i wake up the next morning,
everything may seem surreal.
but i will just let it be a dream;)
something that will keep me perky for the whole day,
let the cycle repeat again,
until i back on my bed to sleep once more:)

cheers.
god bless you:)
be mine once and for all,
and i shall be your's:)

love you so

2010-01-19T02:45:00.000+08:00

From the minute that you got my attention
I was taken and I have to mention
I was trying to not let it show
But I knew I wasn't gonna let you go
From the way that you came right to me
Looking all hot with the style that threw me
No one would've ever known it
You would be the one who take this heart and hold it

You got that extraordinary way
Got to be next to ya every single day
You do something that I just can't explain
Wanna take the chance and tell you you're the one for me

Ooh, I love you so
Just look in my eyes, they'll tell you where this could go
Yeah
Do you know it
Ooh, I love you so
Look in these eyes, they'll tell you where this could go
I just want you to know

You can san say anything you want to
No stress 'cause I understand you
We got a vibe you can't define
Want everyone know that boy is mine
We won't fight and stop and stare at the way you hold me
You take me there at times
I feel I lose control
Forget everyone but the hand I'm holding

You got that extraordinary way
Got to be next to ya every single day
You do something that I just can't explain
Wanna take the chance and tell you you're the one for me

Ooh, I love you so
Just look in my eyes, they'll tell you where this could go
Yeah
Can you feel it
Ooh, I love you so
Look in these eyes, they'll tell you where this could go
I just want you to know

Please know this
I'll always be right here
And you don't have to look
Nowhere else babe
Don't think for a minute
This love will change
Oh you should know that

Ooh, I love you so
Just look in my eyes, they'll tell you where this could go
Yeah
Can you feel it
Ooh, I love you so
Look in these eyes, they'll tell you where this could go
I just want you to know

Ooh, I love you so
Just look in my eyes, they'll tell you where this could go
Yeah
Can you feel it
Ooh, I love you so
Look in these eyes, they'll tell you where this could go
I just want you to know

cheers.
god bless you:)

surprise

2010-01-17T22:02:00.003+08:00

went to town and vivo to hunt for organiser after having brunch with family:)
for once I am gonna say that my baby cousin was cute today:)hahas.
especially the part while his trying to get the ice from my mouth;p

went to town to hunt for organiser,
only went to ION and wisma?LOL
then went to starbucks to write some notes,
before leaving to parkway,
the journey was fast, hmm 30mins only?HAHA!
went to walk around parkway,
hoping to hunt for some organisers at borders.
saw numerous notebooks with nice designs:)
but they were organisers,
if it was few years back, im so gna get it!
so i can scribble during amath classes:DHAHA
at first i thought borders wont sell,
then i went to ask their staff,
then there were some on OFFER AT 5BUCKS!
omg, i was wondering if i should get them.
left without buying, still thinking.
was wondering aimlessly around parkway,
waiting for caramel to end:)

wanted to give caramel a surprise,
but seems like in the end i failed:(
brought caramel to borders to help me make up my mind:)
he told me to get it,hahas.
thanks for wanting to help me get it,
but too bad i was a step faster;DHAHA
went to eat mac before leaving;)

enjoyed lying in caramel's embrace,
looking into each other's eyes:)
hmm, the feeling is just so nice and different?
sometime it feels so mysterious?LOL
felt something else too, but i dont wna say it here,LOL

cheers.
god bless you:)
you made me an incorrigible drug addict,
you are the drug:)

almost got mad

2010-01-16T22:26:00.007+08:00

sorry if i sounded angry with my dear caramel this morning,
sorry caramel!
honestly, i was alittle angry:(
im sorry again

but after thinking carefully and remembering what i just told you ytd,
its takes two good forgivers,
im not trying to be one, but other things come into considerations too:)
i do not wna ruined our smooth sailing too,
i just prefer things to be like before,
dont want us to go down hill or whatsoever,
i want us to remain in the peak and pinnacle:p
i know i sound greedy, but it aint easy to maintain.
it takes two hand to claps,
caramel is the other:)
you didnt break your promises,
you have your own reasons for that:)
if you did, i did too.

im sorry if i am still doing things that harms you,
not sure how long more am i gna try to seriously dare to fully devote into it,
phobias of the past still hunts me...
even though his really out of my heart.

dreamt of both you and him the other night,
felt freaky when i woke up,
somehow forgot what the dream was about.
dont wna know what was it about.
better to forget:)

cheers.
god bless you:)
from now on,
you are all that i need:)
i dont plan to leave after going in,
let me stay for good, can i?:)

good forgivers

2010-01-15T21:33:00.002+08:00

'A good relationship takes two good forgivers'
saw this code at the kinder i was having intern today,
it so called enlighten me:)
in a way that its the key to maintain it well:)

i realised i can do it on caramel,
but i cant do it on some people.
they simply just get on my nerves lately,
maybe my tolerance for them needs to be exploded once in awhile,
to clear everything i had tolerated,
in order to fit it with new things;p

living under one roof with them can rly murder me!
thank god there is grand for me:D
grand is sick, coughing away:(
hope she gets well soon asap:D

thinking of changing to other blog community,
either tumblr or xanga,
getting sick and tired of blogger,
after using it for like maybe three years?
but the memories i had here,
made me find it hard to part with it and move to another blog;p
but im trying out with tumblr in the mean time;p
see if i can get the hang of it first,
and see if i enjoy using if like i enjoyed using xanga:D
if not, im gna permanently move to xanga;Dhehes

cheers,
god bless you:)
cant take you off my mind,
not even a milli sec:D

leave me

2010-01-13T19:57:00.002+08:00

sorry if i never reply your message(s),
just leave me alone,
thats all i need now.
i wont answer any calls,
nor text messages.
sorry...

the numb feeling,
blasting of music,
no disturbance,
thats what i yearn for now

cheers.
god bless you:)

thoughts

2010-01-13T14:32:00.003+08:00

not being jealous,
make me sound like i dont really seem to bother much.
or rather i just dont really spend much time with caramel,
thus not given the chance to be jealous about things?

in the past i used to get jealous easily after being tgt for a period of time,
the jealousy that was ingrained in me,
indirectly cause me to harbor unnecessary terrible thoughts.
things just go haywire with the appearance of these thoughts,
life wasnt so smooth sailing and happy like before.
the atmosphere was tense and even hostile at times.
as time pass, drifting apart, further from each other,
instead of getting closer to each other.

maybe i just learn from the past that jealousy will lead one to harmful thoughts?
causing me to have a higher tolerance about the people around caramel,
having more faith and trust in a person:)
somehow leads me to a carefree and happy life:D
like how things is happening at the moment:)
its seems like this is my first time not quarreling in such situation,
and maybe not mentioning that word?
okay, maybe i did but its more of indirectly by saying,
'its not too late to regret'.
for the time beings, caramel havent give in:)
but like i said it doesnt mean you wont in future;p

however, i wont guarantee that in future i wont be jealous,
when im jealous, i can be very paranoid over things.
thats when the situation turns ugly,
maybe everything just go downhill?
i will still change for the better,
to make sure things goes on:)

just had a mini celebration with caramel at fish&co:)
tho the food wasnt up to expectations,
but the moments we had created was priceless:)
NO ONE and BLEEDING LOVE,
it made us laugh out loud,
even tho the music was overlapping our laughter:p
finally took two photos at the scenic place:)
like i said, short it may seem,
but what matters is the happy occasion we both shared^.^

cheers,
god bless you:)
there's nothing to fear about,
knowing that you will be there for me:)
there's no obstacle that can drag me down,
knowing that you will he my pillar:)
there's nothing that can take my heart away,
except you:)

how?

2010-01-11T15:04:00.002+08:00

having trust in a relationship make things sound contradicting at times,
same goes for jealousy too, i think.

once told caramel this,
when you trust a person, jealousy isnt in your dictionary,
but that person may think that you dont care abt them?
sometimes they may even make a big fuss out of it,
that you dont show your concern or care for them.
however, sometimes it better to think the optimistic way instead.
to prevent matters to turn bad, or whatever it is:)

when you are jealous,
one may think that you dont have the basic trust in them,
they may even feel that you are being paranoid,
sometimes paranoid behaviors occurs when one feels insecure with the other party,
but jealousy also proof that you care for the person,
you are afraid to lose him, you dont wna lose him?
if you think positive that nth is wrong with them,
sometimes thing just happen the other way round,
that hurts you even more when you didnt see it coming.
it happened before,
im not sure if it will ever occur again,
but im hoping that it wont at happen at all,
okay maybe not any time sooner;D

afterall, both ways will still leave you to nowhere,
the best is to hope for someone who can be trusted,
relied, but dont be too overconfident in them,
just be nuetral, it helps at times;D

whatever im saying here,
is just mainly whats in my mind,
but i really dont mean anyth,
purely feel like spitting it out.

cheers,
god bless you:)
you're the fuel that keeps my love for you burning:)
while your fire is burning my mind:)

all the best

2010-01-10T23:01:00.001+08:00

to those taking O level results tmr,

ALL THE BEST FOR YOU!
MAY YOUR HARDWORK BE PAID OFF WITH GOOD RESULTS!
MAY GOD BLESS YOU PPL TOO!

cheers,
god bless you:)

future

2010-01-10T22:52:00.002+08:00

even tho you wont know how things will be in the future,
from the bottom of my heart,
i enjoy talking and planning the future with caramel;D
sounds unrealistic a dream, it maybe
yet we are yearning to achieve it:D

age differences dont matter at times,
what matters is that heart of your's
that treatment of your's,
which i jolly well know that ans:)

some ppl may just say we wont last,
but i will try my very best to make sure we do:)
it takes two hands to clap, i get that.
when i know its time to let go,
i will, but i will do what i can do before it cant be salvaged.
counting on happily:)

cheers
god bless you:)
love is blind,
it can make things flawless

new pair of heels;D

2010-01-09T22:33:00.003+08:00

say i love you:)
to my new preciousbaby;)

hmm, went out with caitlyn for lunch at hollandv,
we ate, crapped, talked and most importantly LAUGHED:D
i felt so blessed and fortunate to get a hug from my pri sch gfs;D
left hv ard 12plus to meet mum in town.

bought shoes, helped a friend checked out some things,
tried on and 'played' with heels at new look and charles&keith;DHAHA!
felt so fun trying with shoes the whole time;pHAHA

shant talk much about what i have done today,
felt very tired around evening before heading for dinner and after,
saw tania and trina at golden mile,
having dinner with their family,
decided not to call to disturb them.
left the place and slept all the way home:)

reading blog(s) now,
lets say do i enjoy reading them/it?
just leave that ans buried in my heart:)?
somethings are not meant to be told and said,
while some is prefer to be kept at the back of the head:)

cheers.
god bless you:)
hope caramel will recover asap,
regain your superdog self;D

very tired.

2010-01-07T01:42:00.002+08:00

i should be doing my essay now,
but my brain is damn dead now.
cant seem to squeeze anymore thing out of my head?
reading my old blog post,
from 2009 all the way back to 2007 or 2006?
seems like there were alot of things?
things start from the end of 2008.
from chalet, tw trips, prom, O's,
graduation, practical, graduation, sentosa trip,etc.
too every sat mornings going to sch for humanities lesson,
to doing phy pass year exam pprs,
going to queenstown library to mug for exams,
to vietnam trip at the end of 2007,
to step ahead lessons for sec4,
to chinese O's, pulau ubin's trip with a small grp of classmates.
am i suppose to forget the mini bits of thing that occurred?
erm, back to muse and muse a night to rmb?

hmm, i think that dont matter anymore;D
dont wna think anym abt the past;D hahas
its over or rather life is just like a music video:)
all good things come to an end :)

going to either coffeebean or starbucks with quins to mug?
hahas, seems like we are still doing it until now;)

those posts are like hmm, wow?
tho i dont get the feeling i usually get,
i just seem to have a mini reminiscing of the past?
but that dont matter to me now;D
cause i prefer to treasure what i have now,
instead of thinking back,
trapping myself in those unnecessary sorrows,
when i can just indulge myself with our happiness;D

cheers,
god bless you:)
all i want is penguin for the night

2010-01-06T11:42:00.001+08:00

back to my sec3 character, to this issue?
tell me whats the next step.

hello seattle

2010-01-05T23:45:00.002+08:00

I am a mountaineer
In the hills and highlands
I fall asleep in hospital parking lots

Take me above your light
Carry me through the night
Hold me secure in flight
Sing me to sleep tonight

cheers,
god bless you;)
let me lie on you and fall asleep,
but please dont wake me up:)

new year's eve

2010-01-02T21:17:00.003+08:00

ultra mini 6C'04 gathering:p

woke up in the morning with my parents off to work,
thought they were still sleeping enjoying their long leave,
went to shower and pack my stuff,
left the house late:p
met clara at dhoby ghaut bus stop,
she was the earliest!
waited for sadrina to arrive before we start walking ard ps,
we chatted sooo much,
miss chatting and going wild with them like the gd old days:)
ate shilin chicken while waiting for the rest to turn up:)
was so glad to see mangai!
'scar-ed' for life':)
its been ages since i last saw her in 2006;p
she's still so naive as ever:)
yanyu joined us while we were chattering away outside bodyshop;p

ate pasta mania,hahas.
had that for tue's dinner and having that for lunch,
shared pizzas with sadrina,
continued being like a crazy girl on ecstasy with them:)
clara left us ard 2plus as she had to help her mum at hm,
the rest of us decided to rot at starbucks;)
found a table to fit all of us, but we nv order anyth:DHAHA
suggested to try our luck by giving mrs ong,
our p6 form teacher a call, using mangai's hp:D
at first she didnt pick up,then she returned our call:)
i spoke to hear first, she rmbed ME:)
i just told her my name and she said out my fullname!
omg,the girls were rly right that she can rmb my name;D
told to her awhile, before passing the hp on,
to sadrina,yanyu,mangai then nadirah,
back to me then sadrina and on?LOL
chatted until ard 3plus 4 before parting,
gave each other hugs, when we were going on our own ways:)
goodbye hugs:)
left mangai,nadirah and me,
but mangai left us at the traffic light,
nadirah waited for 65 with me:)hahas.
thanks!:)

the bus ride to tampines was really long took ard 1hr 40mins!
wanted to slp but dont dare to slp,LOL.
spotted caramel again at the interchange,
went passed each other's shoulder,
you didnt noticed,
but lazy to call out,sent a text
followed caramel behind silently,
until you turned:)hahas.
took 31 to parkway.

went to giant to search for sparkles,
but the ones they sell were not very nice,
so didnt buy any,
plan so called cant fulfilled:(
hope next time can so called come true bah:D
ate subway with caramel before leaving for ecp:)

lucky caramel knows the way to ecp,
the route was near to the pit too:Dhahas.
sorry to leave you alone for sooo long;phahas.

reached, no idea how to get to the pit,
jy called, went to find her to go to the pit tgt,
saw joey and sinwei on the way.
told them to go back first,
walked down tgt with jy:)
met up with the rest of bball girls,
ate,played,camwhore and done many things with them;D
we even celebrated anna's belated bday,hahas.
hope she likes it:D
camwhored with them,
all of us ate a whole watermelon,LOL.
but simply love and enjoy having fun with them

the night we enjoyed:)

it hang over us all night:)

your hp batt when flat while i was at bbq,
saw you there, felt rly bad,
was somehow in a dilemma,
dont wna talked abt it,
have no idea how to put it into words either.
sorry to make you worry,
thanks for taking care of my bad,
sorry to make you carry that gold;p

walked from one end to another end:)
good exercise for the both of us:)
took a break at the food centre,
ice milk tea and sugarcane:)
sorry to waste your money for not finishing the drink;p

continued walking, walking, walking,
walked pass the route caramel walked that day,
now i know how long you and jy walked,
to get to that pit,hahas.
lazy to blog alr,
gna stop here;)

the morning we witnessed:)

cheers,
god bless you:)
unique&fun time,
it was a night to remember:)

avatar

2009-12-28T23:00:00.002+08:00

OMG, I JUST LOVE AVATAR!
THE MOVIE IS SUPERB!;D

aunt got the 3D one for us,
felt freaking sleepy and giddy with that specs,
but i still enjoyed the show;D hahas
dad says it looks like Pocahontas,
but i just love it;D

think i shld be watching it again tmr;)
since treye and i dont mind watching it again,
but i dont wna watch 3D!
cant wait for tmr to come;)
thanks to those who likes it:)

cheers,
god bless you:)
wna lie in thick coatings of caramel:)
crossing fingers for thurs:(

short while

2009-12-27T20:30:00.002+08:00

SMALL LITTLE KID!;Dhehes.
went out with caramel today for lunch after collecting lib books,
suppose to eat ayam penyet,
but it was full house,lazy to wait and queue;p
caramel wanted fish&co, but we are broke!
so i was suggesting we eat FOODCOURT;D
walked from orchard mrt,
round lucky plaza searching for ayam penyet,
then walked to 313 for food republic:)hahas.

walked slowly there,
it was freaking humid, tho it was raining.
313 was packed with ppl,
took the escalator until the top floor,
walked rounds and rounds in food republic,HAHA!
cant find a sit,
caramel said we sure end up eating fast food,
(you were half right and wrong)
but we decided to walk aimlessly around 313,
before eating at food republic,HAHA!
so called wasted time in hmv,
before eating at food republic;D
saw ppl eating banmian,
wanted to eat yong taufu at first,
then wanted to get banmian.
but caramel said me and my banmian again,
so just stick with eating yongtaufu:)
its okay, shall go there again to try their banmian:D
sadly, cant find any stores that sells nasi lemak;p

share a table with 2 ladies,ate super slowly,
showed caramel greeting cards written by sheryl&quincy,
caramel laughed:)
while caramel finished quite fast.
those two ladies were talking abt history,
left ear listening to what they are talking abt,
(im not being busybody,just curious;p)
right ear listening to caramel;DLOL
ate super slowly,
laugh, eat,chew,swallow!
ate finished my food, still feel hungry;p
then we decided to go mos burger for a drink and chicken nuggets:D

caramel asked if central has mos burger,
you are asking redundant questions lol!
ordered, waited, ate, drank our food:)
went to urban write to waste sometime,
before leaving for home:)

caramel starts sch tmr!
JIAYOU WITH SCH,DUDE!
eat sth that will make you full and can last you the whole day!
starting with intern's lead in tmr at a methodist kindergarten,
CROSSING FINGERS that it will be fun;D

cant wait for tuesday to come;D
going out with treye?!(not used to calling him that tho)
only get to go out with him once a year, hahas.
gna go crumpler hunting with him,LOL
his thinking getting one,hahas.
not sure if there will be another class gathering that night,
just hope things to turn out fun or maybe interesting:)

cheers,
god bless you;)
you are part of me,
stay permanently,
dont leave:)
thats all i asked.

long post

2009-12-26T11:28:00.004+08:00

hmm, havent been posting since wed:)

23dec
met up with sheryl at queenstown cc,
took the bus down to vivo tgt:)
it was raining on the way there,
THANKS TO SOMEONE!
meet up with sr there,
the super duper red guy that day,hahas.
he and hl wore couple colour,RED!
went to sentosa in the morning with a mixture of ages!
except for hl, sheryl and i(quincy mia:()
had famous amos cookies and ljs for breakfast,
before going to sentosa,
the weather wasnt that sunny at first.

went to sentosa looked at the guys playing 2on2 bball,
laughing away at them for playing until so funny,
then we decided to walk to go tanjong beach,
walked to palawan, then took a tram to tanjong beach,
there were so MANY DOGS at tanjong beach!
sheryl and i saw one very cute one,
it was running with 2 guys?LOL
went to wash up around 4plus,
hl left first to collect the food for bbq,
sheryl and i went to giant to buy the drinks and some snacks,
didnt have enough time to eat subway:(
met yongjie outside giant,
three of us lazy to line for the taxi queue,
so he decided to use his way to 'jump queue':D
was eating ruffles along the way,
until i got tired of eating it,
reached the pit the earliest,
sheryl and i started camwhoring(tho only a few pics)
tho some random pics.
so glad that garytan came to join us,
even though it was a short while,
its better than nth;D

was freaking hungry, but the bbq havent start.
screaming away like a crazy person lols,
lucky i was texting caramel to divert my attention
if not i will keep thinking of food!:)
classmates slowly join us at different timing,
think the last person to come was quincy,
eh no, it was julius chiang!
she was just in time for the food:)
the best part was nobody was listening to her,
explaining her game rules,
we ended up just drinking,HAHA!
the chicken wing that day was nice!
even tho it i managed to eat one:(
enjoyed the corn spread with butter;)
it was freaking yummy!
that lee hongloon arh,
everytime ask me to check if the food was cooked!
what do you think im, a food tester?
thanks hl,yj,yk , marcus and the rest of the guys for making the food;D

gta leave early:(
thank you sheryl and quincy for sending me off,
lucky they came along,
there was a part of the path where the lamp was spoil,
was quite eerie,LOL
found caramel, after screaming like a mad person?LOL
wearing black from top to bottom so hard to see in the dark,
walked out to the expressway to flag for a cab.
thanks for sending me home:D
both of us went home with a sunburnt:)hahas.

24dec
met up with honey at market for breakfast,
before heading down to funan for a haircut.
it was raining along the way,
cant wait to meet caramel that day,
wanted to see whats your expression with the new haircut,
the funny thing was you either didnt notice,
or there was no difference for you,LOL
its okay:)hahas.
met up with caramel at cityhall,
was busy spotting you in either black or white,
then honey saw you,
you were in both:)
the sight of you make me smile:)hahas
you look different that day:):):)lols
caramel was shy infront of honey,hahas.
had lunch at mos,
eating, talking, laughing,
im full when i hardly touched my burger,HAHA!
caramel made me laugh toooo much!hahas.

was wondering what to do until 330,
decided to go to the museum to check out the exhibit,
the answer was expect the unexpected,
it turn out to be a disappointment:(
went to the museum shop to look around at their souvenirs,
before leaving the museum.
wondering AGAIN what to do,went to 313:)
was walking around hmv,
saw adam lambert's and tokio hotel's album:)
noticed that my earphones are spoiling,
guess ipod earphones are still the best,
used for more than a year alr,
it still okay,
but my sony one is giving way soon,
tho i enjoy using my sony one alot:D
maybe i shall buy back the same one:p
or maybe try audio technica?:)

went to jurong point to meet up with dingdang and yoyo:)
met with dingdang first,apparently her ex crush srsly piss her off.
end up only the three of us went to find dickson:)
not sure if he still recgonises me?
he just said i had a sunburnt,LOL
went to find yoyo's mum, left dingdang and me,
walked around jp,we parted after i found caramel.
she dont wna be a light bulb,LOL
brought caramel to look for sth, hahas.

left jp and we headed to millenia walk for OUTBACK:D
sat outside as the indoor ones were full hse.
ate buffalo wings, tried their pork chop:)
but it wasnt very nice, its okay i like their chips:):):)
walked a short cut to the busstop,
that place was fun and cooling,
but i rly regretted not taking a pic with caramel:(
sigh, miss the chance alr:(
took train home tgt,
as usual the cant bear part shant elaborate.
thanks for the xmas present:)
love it loads:)

until now i havent sent out my greeting cards,
hmm, this year maybe the year i shant send out any;p
lazy to write and send, sorry guys!
next year then i continue:D

cheers,
god bless you:)
wna rly lie in your embrace for good;)
those happy times are engraved in my heart:)
let me in to your soul

im bored

2009-12-22T22:55:00.002+08:00

just say im bored or sort of nth better to do,
watching 16 and pregnant:)
pls think straight, dont think too much.
hate it when ppl think out of the damn box,
watched two episodes,
those parents out there are really open!
nice watching,
BUT NOT NICE TO BE IN THEIR SHOE!
or rather I NV WNA BE AT ALL!
im so freaking envious on the part that they can drive,
AT THE FREAKING AGE OF 16.
while in singapore we cant:(sigh...
gna sleep after this episode end,
tho im sort of awake somehow:)

cheers,
god bless you:)

sigh

2009-12-22T17:29:00.003+08:00

went to gym with quincy today,
both of us were gossiping away from the moment we met:DHAHA
we were like paying at the cc counter for using the gym,
while paying the both of us dont know that we are passion card members,LOL!
we were like errr, since when?HAHA
'working out' in the gym for a few hours,
weight myself before leaving,
my mass is still the same,NO DIFF!
went for lunch,HAD ASTONS:D
okay, i gained all my calories back,lol

just washed my sch shoes,
it still looked as dirtied as before i washed it.
managed to so called tuned back my slping time:D
im soooo happy!
but i hope it remained fixed,
i dont wna have a biological clock in me:(
i want to sleep like a log again:D

went out with caramel ytd,
btw what you did ytd,
was when im low on my guard,LOL
STUPID CARAMEL,hmph!
srsly i kept eating whenever i go out with you?
omg, i dont wna gain weight man!
i shall not eat breakfast tmr,SAVE MONEY!:D
must stop eating non stop hahas.
shall have subway for lunch tmr:D
smth healthy,LOL.
gta pack my things tonight,
since im planning to wakeup late tmr,
but i doubt i will wakeup late,HAHA!
YESH,IM SO GNA GET SOME TANNED!
but i dont wna have any sun burnt with blisters:(
i wont mind the burnt tho,
but i dont want it to ache like nuts,
CAUSE IM GOING OUT ON XMAS EVE:D

shant write too much things on my post from now on,
if not somebody will comment sooo mushy!
but its not like you nv read my mushy posts before right!
but i think the one in may one was worst than the past few?
nvm, shall just make it short and simple now:)

cheers. god bless you:)
taken away by caramel:D
no one else but only caramel:)

caramel's back

2009-12-20T21:05:00.002+08:00

came back from camp yesterday,
was too tired to post anything,
had loads of fun with bball friends:)
from the first day till the end of the camp,
suppose to lose some weight at camp,
but i ended up gaining some i guess:p

rushed back home to watch sanguo:)
eyes were half shut, watching tv,
went town to shop and eat with mum,
in a freaking lethargic mode.
went to 313 and orchard central,
reminding me of the memories with caramel:p
was at central's coffeebean with family,
thinking of caramel and your msg came:p
was over the moon when i received caramel's msg,
i admitted im love sick:s
cause my heart is caramelized,LOL!
wrapped in thick coats of caramels;p

slept in the car while dad was driving round town area,
slept in the car again on the way to grand's hse,
slept at grand's hse while the adults were talking,
parents said i was sound asleep.
sorry caramel to make you worried last night;(
both of us were both lethargic from our own activities ytd:)

surprised to receive caramel's text this morning,hahas.
sorry made you lack of sleep;p
enjoy working at the new environment;D
cant wait for tmr to come,
finally its coming:Dhahas.

cheers.
god bless you:)
want to get drenched in caramel:)
just wna lie in a river of caramel for eternity:)
im your's now,
im your's in future,
im your's forever:)

saltwater room

2009-12-16T23:38:00.002+08:00

i know caramel has this song but i still want post it:)
but i still wna say this to you from the bottom of my heart,

Time together is just never quite enough
we both share the same sentiments abt it:D
i wont complain abt the length of it:)
but slowly savour it:D
When you and I are alone, I’ve never felt so at home
just wna lie in your embrace or hug you,
whenever i see you:)
What will it take to make or break this hint of love?
its already broken,
now we are enjoying the sugary sensation of it:)
We need time, only time
i want time to never meet and end,
guess only time can heal the emptiness in us,
when we are separated.
When we’re apart whatever are you thinking of?
you are always hogging my mind day and night:D
without fail, not leaving you even a mili-sec
If this is what I call home, why does it feel so alone?
alone with caramel around, I dont feel lonely:D
So tell me darling, do you wish we’d fall in love?
arent we alr so called 'madly' or rather love sick;p
All the time, all the time
all i need is caramel:D

cheers.
god bless you:)
hope caramel likes what i wrote for you:D
owner missing her pet

you left

2009-12-16T21:47:00.003+08:00

talked on the phone with caramel this morning until 2,
sorry too tired to last until 3 or so;phahas
enjoy talking to caramel:D hahas
tho i feel very bad about your bill!:(
hmm, caramel must be on the cruise now:)
decided to leave a post for you before going for camp;D

sorry didnt send you off before seeing you board the cruise;p
may the both of us wont keep sneezing
i got an extra photo to look at:pLOL
hope you will have fun and enjoy yourself at cruise:D hahas
few days later, caramel grow fat!hahas
though today was kind of short,
but it was my first time sending ppl off on a cruise;pHAHA
sorry cant wait for you at the arrival this sat evening:(
hmm, hope you like the send away 'gift' i gave bah.
sorry, took so long to give you,
but like i said it maybe the last;phahas.LOL

cant wait for next week to come;D
gna have class gathering,bbq and go sentosa:D
most important of all, XMAS'S EVE:D
hello, scorching sun here i come:D hahas
but i must rmb to put sunscreen,
if not sure get sunburnt:(
i want next week to come asap:Dhahas

cheers.
god bless you;D
looking forward to see you in my dreams,
until im able to see you in person again:)
you took my heart away,
now its really your's:)

the princess and the frog

2009-12-15T21:57:00.003+08:00

caramel(ised) hugs;p

went out with caramel today,
to catch the princess and the frog;D
at first it feels weird,
cause im watching with an OLD DOG;p
wished it was a puppy tho,
but i still like the way caramel is;D hahas

as usual the laughters we had during the time out,HAHA
like you said happy moments never last,
there will be a time when things come to an end,
it ends at the moment we part;(
however, im sure we wont let something come to a stop,
thats the fun and joy we both create everytime;D
am i right, caramel?hahas.

no idea why im feeling this way,
when i told you i wont miss you so badly,
i srsly thought i wont.
but now i seem to feel the same way as you:(hahas
caramel gna go on a cruise until sat evening.
now that 5days seem so dreadful?
like what caramel said,
thank god i will be away for bball camp;D
if not things maybe worst,LOL!

like what caramel said,
looking at the photos to reduce it;Dhahas.
but i think looking at the photos wont take any effect on me;phahas.
maybe seeing each other in our lala land will,HAHA!
still bon voyage for your trip tmr;D hahas
have fun and play hard!;D
but dont get yourself injured:p

cheers.
god bless you:)
time spend together maybe short,
join all of them together,
it becomes a movie;D
but it will never be enough for both of us:D
wrap around warm caramel;D

313

2009-12-14T22:55:00.003+08:00

mini cottage?;D

went to watch new moon with caramel,
tho taylor was great think the movie seems weird,
but im okay with watching it with caramel;D hahas.
DOGGY!
kept laughing lols.
dont say i accompany caramel watch movie,
its i wanna watch it tgt with caramel:D
caramel was damn funny during the movie,lols.
kept disturbing each other tho,HAHA

finally get to eat marche,
tho it wasnt at vivo and the food was alittle disappointing:(
but im glad that i still can eat it with caramel;D
had so much fun with caramel there,
kept laughing,
tho i have no idea why i kept yawning,hahas.
next time wna eat must go vivo,
think their food are nicer;pLOL
tho the place there is smaller than 313.
sort of have a mini camwhore session with caramel;p
hmm,maybe we shall have more tmr?hahas

though today we didnt manage to catch another movie,
im sooo glad that i can watch it with caramel tmr;D
i know it seems weird to ask you to watch a cartoon tho,HAHA
but since sheryl said its okay,
im still trying to convince myself that its okay:p
the crocodile that appear in peter pan!

f21 is opened at 313 but quincy said there aint any sale,
its okay, we shall wait;D
sort of have extra cash to spend now;phehes.
but i still must CONTROL!
still havent pack for camp,
veggie said bringing 5sets as they gna play bball overnight,WHOOSH!
think i will end up making a fool out of myself hahas.

cheers.
god bless you;D
you brighten up my day like no others,
wanting the happy times to freeze in its place,
wishing they will be there for eternity:)
wrapped around with high viscosity syrup:D
hoping that i can just lie in it forever,
your warm embrace:)