it was my heart doing the decision controlling what my mind,
as always whenever I am in this state of mind.
Reading through the obsoletes that I never treasure,
only learning how to treasure and really see the things that really meant so much to me after losing it for good.
But what are left of it is just history texts,
texts that were only meant to be revisited or obsolete forever.
Maybe its more than just texts, there are artifacts to prove that this part of history once existed.
Whoever it is other than my soul mate would knows that I am very drawn to feelings when such things happens,
which was one of the reason why we were brought together.
Our mind once things the same way,
my train of thoughts have yet to change, even after so many years.
This moment my heart seems to be responding to the calling of those artifacts and texts,
my legs are beyond my control,
bringing me to someone that was neglected over the years.
My heart wants me to sit down to read all the texts,
my eyes just want to take a seriously look at those artifacts given.
My mind just want to fall into the ocean of that 'sleepy powder'
Till now those texts are able to get those tear glands working,
My heart knows if those texts still holds the same value as before,
Something in my heart is still unwilling to let go a part of it,
as my heart is still holding that space so adamantly for you,
that its only meant for you, still irreplaceable.
To be honest, I missed that part of me, where I was so thrifty,
doesnt spend money like water, know how to use money wisely,
but know I am just nothing,
the past is obsolete so is everything except for the way I think,
whenever I am always in my current state of mind.
As its always this part of history that I will feel so comfortable to retreat myself in,
its this part that makes me feel that the most comfortable with cause that was when we were on the same frequency.
No matter what it is,
the artifacts and texts that were pass down are the best companions I ever had until now,
they are really irreplaceable.
Food for a Thought,
are those things still at the original place or just down some soil waiting for it to be break down,
returning back to be part of the earth's ground.
Really curious to find out but the frequency is no longer there.
Given a chance to travel back in time,
I will still to return back to that time,
it was then where I really felt that was the happiest part of my time,
everyone so close and bonded.
I will also tell myself that those were not my heartfelt words,
tell the person what he truly meant to me in my heart,
to prevent history from repeating itself.
If only there was a time machine, ensuring our vows to materialise.
Sometimes I wonder if certain parts of history would ever repeats again,
like the happy ones, while the sad and upsetting parts walk down the memory lane forever.
My heart is beyond my control,
the texts are in a bag waiting to be read again, everything.
