Confession III

Was suppose to write a post every day until the day we part,
but I missed out 3 days of not writing anything;p
busy with school, tired, etc
all of them are excuse, if I dont take the opportunity to write now,
when will you be able to read what I write after separation?
But that sounds more like I should write daily,
so when you can finally read them, you will still be able to know what you have missed out,
while you are away all these time:)

If you are ever curious why is it a confession,
for the first two posts they were all about things that i havent really been honest,
or should i say its buried beneath my hard for a long time, I would say.

even though we didnt say it verbally,
our heart seems to know that we are competing with time to spend as much time as possible with each other,
it seems to be a mutual thing that the both of us wna maximise the time we spent with each other.
from the two little mini 'vacation' to the days left.
Time seems to be a crucial and evil thing to the both of us.

While trying to ensure that the both of us are spending as much time with each other as possible,
on the low side still trying my very best to cope with the horrible curse and addiction,
I know you are trying to comfort me by telling me its a hobby,
not a curse, I just have to learn how to cope with it.
But sometimes I do feel that I am a gambler only thing its well packaged into such a manner that
I am able to keep them for good, you may say that I still earn alittle from it,
but those earning are like those gamblers who have won a bet,
then those that I bought and like are just as good as i lose the bet,
I really hate myself infecting such an addiction.
But I do hope that I would gain something from your departure,
stop going out, staying at home all day either doing work/ packing room or just rest at home.
I really want to stop all these addiction.
Do I need to seek psychiatrist help?

Since the day we first met at interview,
till now things have changed so drastically,
so do the feelings towards each other, 180 degrees changed
but yet we will be separated due to commitments.
Will things change due to commitments,
or this will be an obstacle to test for true love.
Departure for good, separation forever,
or the start of something even better than before.


Cheers.
God bless you:)
Someone once told me that I was the star of his life,
but the star soon fall into darkness.
Now, I want to be the brightest star shining in your life,
until the day i stop breathing,
I hope I shall be the last star.